To Love You More ( SIX)

I was scared Bambina 🥹

Wednesday October 29 th 2021

**Maya and Carina woke up snuggled up in each other arms , none of them wanted to go to work today, just wanted to be naked in their own bed all day, but they had to go to work , cause money doesn't grow on trees, **

6h37 am
Carina: hrmmmm good morning l'amour de ma vie ,
Maya : hrmmm good morning my love, how was your night? You are the love of my life too babe,
Carina: it was okay, I slept good next to you, my back hurts a little bit now so it's a good thing, the chiropractor said it's going to stop hurting soon,
Maya: okay well that's good, I can do what he showed me and help you out until your next chiropractor appointment!
Carina: I don't want to be a hassle to you Bambina
Maya: ohhh honey , you are never a hassle to me , you never have been, and never will be !

** Maya kissed her wife passionately **

Carina: okay thank you so much , and you are never a hassle to me too babe! I want you to know that!

** she then turned on her stomach so Maya could give her a back massage before they got ready for work**

Maya: I know lovey , don't worry about it,
Carina: hrmmmmmm , I feel like I'm melting into the bed ,
Maya: how so ?
Carina: because it feels nice—- amazing getting the massage...
Maya: well it's my pleasure to give you a well deserved back massage, every now and then,
Carina: hrmmmm , thank you,
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Carina: I don't want to go to work today, I want you to stay in bed with me all day,
Maya: yea I know that would be great, but we both have to go to work. You used to be all excited about working in your own clinic... what changed babe?
Carina: nothing changed Bambina , I just miss you. We never take the time to just enjoy each other's company like we used to.
Maya: I know.. but everything changed when we had our perfect and beautiful children,
Carina: yea.... Wait why do I feel like you said that with regret in your voice?
Maya: what? I don't regret anything about us having children. At all , I wish I agreed to that years ago , babe, I told you multiple times

**Carina BOLTED OUT OF BED , Angry and upset**

Maya: where are you going babe,
Carina: YOU LEGIT REGRET EVERYTHING, I heard it in your voice Bambina, what the fuck, so you regret having them with me or HAVING ME AS YOUR WIFE ??

** she was hysterically crying and locked herself up in  the Nook downstairs which is noise canceling, you don't hear a thing when you are outside the nook once the door is closed. ... and curled up into the cushions before the kids came downstairs for breakfast. She had the door opened and continued talking to her kids **

7h47
Carina: Londyn come on it's time to go see your friends at daycare, come put your shoes  on please
Londyn : ohhhhh ohhhhhh momma,
Me no want to...
Carina: I know you don't, but we have to, I.. I'm coming in a few minutes, get your shoes ready,

Londyn : okay momma .

** Londyn got a blue one and a pink shoe and sat down on the floor and put them on. She was really really proud of herself.Carina didn't notice that she was wearing two different coloured shoes **

Maya: babe please, come on, talk to me!
Carina: I don't want to , I have nothing to say to you , you legit said you regretted .... 
Maya: I didn't say that, you said you missed snuggled up with me like before we .....
believe me I do too, but things have changed yea but for the better, babe, because it's not just the two of us anymore, and I love love love being a mommy, THEIR MOMMY, and I love being a wife,
YOUR WIFE .

Carina: okay..... but why didn't you say that before?
Maya: I regret not having children sooner that's all...
Carina: I just miss you
Maya: I'm here....
Carina: yea I know baby I miss seeing your beautiful face across the hall from my office, knowing that we could go to each other when we felt like being held
by one an other , the work atmosphere isn't the same without you. That's all.
Maya: okay...
Carina: I know you love being a firefighter. But I loved the nine one one operator you. Because I ... guess I felt safe knowing that you were not going into literal flames for a living, and now that you have gone back to the station my fears of losing you, getting that terrifying phone call from someone from the station... letting me know that you died in the fire... I ... it's on my mind again , I know it's not fair for you, and I will never ask you to give up being a firefighter.... I'm just constantly scared.and I know you are careful Bambina, I know you are. It's just....
The kids need you. I NEED YOU! I'm sorry about earlier but I'm emotional about that and other things.... Like our children growing up!

Maya : I understand what you are feeling babe, but I love my job ,
Carina: yea I know Bambina! I will never ask you to give up your job for me , and my insecurities. Have a wonderful day at work, go save people my love!
Maya: okay... I will. I love youuu so much! Don't you ever forget about that,
Carina: yea I know,
Maya: is that why you are extremely emotional lately
Carina: I don't know why I'm extremely more emotional than I was before.

** Maya left for work at 8h and Carina did soon after. ONE WORK AND SCHOOL DAY LATER CARINA IS HOME WITH THE KIDS, Maya still has one hour left until her work shift is over , **

16h42
Carina: so how was your French test Enzo ?
Lorenzo: ohhh i think I did good , hopefully I will get 90 % , at least!
Carina: okay well I'm glad you said it was good, and baby don't ever stress about your grades , unless you didn't study, then we will be pushing you all kids to get better grades , but if you study for all of your exams that's all we need and want from you, okay?
The kids: okay momma!

** they entered the house and immediately smelled something burning.**

Violet; home sweet home, hrmmm
Scarlett : what is the smell ? Ohhh my !

** coughs and coughs **

Carina: uhhh I dont know,
But we should definitely get out of the house! I'm calling the station.

** Everyone was calm .... **

Carina: okay thank you babe ! We'll wait outside,

** She hung up with the station, she quickly went upstairs to grab her minty green blanket, that would have been Juliette's blanket. And quickly came back downstairs with a giggly toddler in her arms , underneath her armpits **

Scarlett : soooo is mommy coming to rescue us ?
Carina: uhhh yes , she's coming with the rest of the Station19 crew
Violet: yayyy , i cant wait to hug everyone!
Carina: ohhh baby girl, we won't be able to hug anyone until they go inside the house and see what that smell is , we have to wait outside!
Violet: ohhhh because they are working.
Carina: siiii that's right.

** A few minutes later NINETEEN left , Maya said it was a wire from something, she would get it fixed when she got home.... Carina was trying to be brave in front of her children but deep down she really really thought she was going to die in her huge house with her children, and that Maya would ironically be the widowed one ! Everyone talked about their day, Maya made dinner, LASAGNA, Carina made sure it was cooked well enough! 😉! After everyone was in bed Carina curled up in Maya's arms and cried, **

Carina: babbbeeeee that was sooooooo terrifying.....
Maya : I know, but I fixed the problem .
Carina: hrmmmmk ohhhhhhhh kayyyyyyy ! Please hold me !
Maya: alright, I'll hold you...
Carina: grazieeeee , I love you tremendously, forever and always, to the moon and back

Maya: I love you too my love, to the moon and back, forever and always.

**Carina quickly fell asleep in her wife's arms , Maya kissed Carina good night and gently laid her down on her side of the bed THE RIGHT SIDE! And then fell asleep as well soon after. By 22h everyone was sleeping**