Old friend Book 1

Chapter #20

Chapter #20
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Sam’s POV
So appereantly the press got a picture of Scarlett falling on her way to the store so of course I had to repost it with my own caption.

“She is beauty she is grace she is falling on her face”
[@ChrisEvans: HAHAHAHAHA]
[@ScarlettJohansson: Really @SamMily you too]
[@SamMily: I couldn’t help myself]
[@MelanieSloan: Scarlett sweetie are you ok]
[@ScarlettJohansson: I’m ok Mom thanks for the concern]
[@HunterJohansson: Ha sis you look like a cartoon charater in that picture]
[@ScarlettJohansson: Watch it Hunter Sam’s a former Marine and I will set her loose on you]
[@SamMily: Correction once a Marine always a Marine and yes I would go after you Hunter if she tells me to]
[@HunterJohansson: I take it back geez]
[@ScarlettJohansson: That’s better]

“Sam I love you I do but did you really have to repost that photo. THe caption was kinda funny I’ll give you that but really?” Scarlett says walking into the studio where I have been all day. “Sorry I couldn’t resist and the comments were hilarious like when you threatened Hunter.” I defend. “Ugh it’s a good thing I love you.” She says. “I know and I love you too. I don’t know what I’d do without you.” I reply. “You wouldn’t have as much to post on instagram.” She jokes as she comes over and sits in my lap. “You guys know I’m still here right?” Benji asks. “I’m just sitting on her lap.” Scarlett says. “Do you want to hear the newest song we made?” I ask. “Yeah I’d love that. I’ll be in the sound booth.” She says getting up. “This is ‘I’m not okay’.” I say before we start to play.

“Tonight the monsters are screaming so damn loud”
“But I built walls so high so the never even make a sound”
“It’s a mask it’s a lie it’s the only home I’ve ever known”
“Cause being who I really am has only left me more alone”

“I am not okay”
“And I need you to see it”
“I have so much to say”
“And no one to hear it”
“The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake”
“I always feel like a burden let it silence me”
“You’ll never understand why it’s so hard to say”
“I’m not okay”

“I wish I had a scar had a bruise on surface any kind of proof”
“That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse”
“My life’s invisible abuse I’m either judged or have to hide”
“The only symptom you can see is I don’t want to be alive”

“I am not okay”
“And I need you to see it”
“I have so much to say”
“And no one to hear it”
“The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake”
“I always feel like a burden let it silence me”
“You’ll never understand why it’s so hard to say”

“I’ll never have the words”
“I can’t explain this hell”
“But what if it kills me if I keep it to myself, to myself”

“I am not okay”
“And I need you to see it”
“I have so much to say”
“And no one to hear it”
“I’m not okay”
“I’m not okay”
“I’m never safe”
“It’s not a phase”
“If I finally break will you still stay”

“Tonight the monsters in my head in my head are screaming so damn loud”

“What do you think?” I ask Scarlett the same thing I ask with every song. “I will always stay. And I love it.” She says, wrapping her arms around me. “I’ll leave you two alone, I've got to get home anyway.” Benji says. “Drive safe.” I call out getting a nod in return. “I think people will love this album as much or posibly more than the last one.” Scarlett says. “You think so?” I ask as we make our way to the living room. “Yeah this past month you have worked so hard while also getting your Mom an apartment. I know you won't release this album you are currently working on for another 5 months but I think they will love it.” She tells me. “Thanks Baby that means a lot.” I tell her.

We decided on watching movies for the rest of the day and one of them had a very sexual scene and even though I tried to hide it Scarlett noticed that I was getting turned on and paused the movie. “Maybe we should go upstairs.” Scarlett says. “What’s wrong with right here on the couch.” I tell her. “Nothing at all.” She says taking her shirt off.

A/N
The next one will have smut don’t worry. The song belongs to Citizen Soldier. Anygays see you in the next one.