[eng] Leave My Shit Outside ; Ziam

r ; BABY COME HERE, I GET SO LONELY AT NIGHT

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LIAM'S POV

"What's going on with you and Lupi?" I ask Zaynie when we're already on the bus, going back home. I'm exhausted.

"I had a crush on her, but it looks like she doesn't like nonbinary people this way." I wipe my false tears. "Why?"

"I don't know, when I said to her if you know each other from work, she got a bit defensive. Asked me if I knew you and I told her I'm your boyfriend." I shrug.

"You aren't wrong, you are my boyfriend. It's official."

"Can I ask you something?"

"Hope I have the answer."

"HATSHHHHH! Do you still feeling attraction for other people?" My nose can't stop running.

"You mean since we're together?"

"I think so. If you're comfortable, tell me, of course."

"Babe, I should've told you about it, but I didn't find the cue and I think that now is the time."

"Are you married?! HATSHHHHH!"

"No!" She laughs, getting serious slowly. I arch my eyebrows waiting for more. "When I met you I already was in something with other people."

"So you're non-monogamous." I conclude after a quick thought.

"Yes. I didn't know how to tell you, I didn't know if this could be something for you, and-"

"Babe, that's OK. Breath in." I touch her hands.

"I still wanna be with you, don't doubt about it."

"What if our relationship was open?" I think about it.

"How would it be to you?"

"I asked first." I raise my hands.

"I would be with you, and at the same time with my other affection if I want to. If anything bothers you, you must tell me. I'll do the same and we can talk about it. Dialogue is the basement."

"But would we have some priority? I mean" I can't conclude my sentence, I don't know how.

"Everything would be a priority, I guess. My time by myself, our time with me and you, our time with other people. It's something we have to organize."

"Would you kiss someone in front of me?"

"No, not necessarily. I think it's a moment's decision, but we can talk about it. How would it be for you?"

"I think that if I don't see it, it would be easier. HATSHHHHH! TSHHHHH!"

"Babe, you don't have to agree with everything. What does 'easier' mean? It doesn't have to be difficult in any way. So no, we won't kiss other people at the same place we're together."

"Zy, if you're with someone, I would like to know."

"You wanna know the names?"

"Yeah. NXXXGSHHH!"

"Besides you, I have Niall and Oliver. And Harry from time to time. It's not a big list."

"OK. Thank you for trusting me to tell me your stuff."

"I trust so much that we're dating, huh?" We end up laughing. "What 'bout you, do you have someone you're in?"

"No, I don't think so. Why don't you sleep over at my place tonight?"

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I blow my nose so harshly that some people around stare at me looking disgusted. This makes me think about which privilege they have for not having to do this at one time or another. Would it involve money, since everything revolves around it? I sigh. From the other side Zaynie is here with me, watching me from time to time. Must be because I'm coughing more often than before.