Roses and Cherry Blossoms

Chapter 18

I wish I never had to leave Cupcake's arms. Being with Cupcake is the only time I feel happy, the only time I feel safe and secure.

Maybe part of that is because I know that if I am with him, he can't leave me.

Now that our nails are finally dry, we opted for pastel yellow this week, I jump on my Cupcake. He doesn't even seem phased as my entire weight falls on him at once.

Cupcake slips his hands under my sweater, resting his hands on my bare waist. Lately I haven't been wearing as many dresses, I love the feeling of Cupcake's hands on my bare skin, after I told him that, he has done it at every opportunity possible. Now that it is a little warmer and I don't have to wear tights all the time, he still rests his hand on my thigh as we dive, but it is different when my skin is bare.

I put one leg on either side of him so I can sit up a bit, my skirt bunching up so it is now completely around my waist and hips. I take a second to just look at him. He is so beautiful. His dark hair could use a cut, but I still like it. His dark eyes stare into mine. His nose is perfectly straight, somehow with all his years of sports, he has never broken it. His skin is clear and smooth, it looks fake, and it is darker than mine. His lips are average, not thin, but not overly full. He is perfect, everything about him is perfect.

He looks back at me with his perfect smile. He has been smiling so much since we started dating, I love knowing how happy he is. Maybe I make him as happy as he makes me.

I lower myself down until my lips meet his, he kisses back as soon as I reach him. He tightens his grip on my waist, squeezing my bare skin.

My hands find his hair and they get tangled in the thick, black mess. As I play with his hair he lets out a small moan, making me kiss him harder as I slip my tongue into his mouth.

I love the noises he makes when I kiss him.

My lower half starts to slightly move against him, as if I have no control over it. This causes me to let out a moan.

Thank goodness we are home alone.

I pull away from Cupcake, I think this may be going a bit too far. As soon as his tongue is out of my mouth and his lips are off mine, I feel lost, like I am missing something.

So, naturally, I just kiss him again.

I let out an embarrassingly loud moan as my hips move me against his thing.

I make myself pull away, for real this time, I think it might be going a little far, I'm not sure either of us are ready for things to go farther than just kissing.

I roll off of Cupcake, laying right next to him, one leg thrown over his torso and my head right next to his.

"You drive me absolutely insane, Evangeline Rose Jasper." He says, turning his head to face me. "You are so beautiful." He reminds me.

I lift my hand up to his face, my thumb skimming over his cheek. "I love you so much, Cupcake." I tell him. I give him a quick, soft kiss.

"I love you too." He says back to me. No matter how many times he says it, my heart beats faster every single time. My Cupcake is in love with me.

"I think I want to visit my parents." I blurt out. I haven't gone to see them since they passed, I want to bring them flowers.

"Anything you want, love. Do you want to go now?" I nod my head.

*

Before I know it, Cupcake and I are standing at my parent's shared gravesite, they also share a gravestone.

I sit next to the headstone, trying to avoid any dirt. Cupcake sits down right next to me, he wraps his arm around me, letting me know he is there for me.