Lighter to my heart || hyunlix

Chapter 4

Hyunjin's Pov

Well , It wasn't so bad last night. I could finally close my eyes and sleep well. My dark circles aren't so visible anymore and I look a lot better. I can't find the reason why did this happen but as long as it continues I won't complain.

-"Hey Hyunjin , where are you heading to?" I hear someone approaching me from behind.

-"To the art club, are you coming too , Minho?"

-"Yeah, mostly because It's just the start of the semester and I actually have time for it."

-"How comes I'm the only one that is able to manage their time..."

-"Well obviously because you're gifted somehow.Anyways we have a problem!"

I roll my eyes .

-"No, YOU have a problem. I have an idiot who keeps getting into one."

-" Yeah , literally what did I say before? Even your comebacks are something.Now let me finish. I actually didn't bring my work. Do you think Nabi is going to nag me?"

-"Well, first, don't ask me that and second ,you did it with your own hand so definitely."

-"Ahh man , then wish me luck."

-"Hate to break it to you, but no."

-"Come on Hyunjinie, at least this time"

-"No and stop calling me that!"

-"Fine , cold bowl of soup" Minho replied and entered the club room first.

I was about to trip him but luck was on his side today because Nabi was in class. We choose the seats  near the window to get more light when we are working .

Slowly other club members started coming in and without even noticing when, we started the work.
-"Alright , I'm glad everyone is here today. Since It's  the first day , I wanna see your summer work. While I'll go and talk with each person in particular , please begin sketching the things I organized in the front."

I lean a little to one side because I wasn't able to see due to my easel. On a table there was a bottle of wine , the glass was green and the light reflecting through it made the composition inside visible. Beside it , there was an empty glass , a plate with some cookies .
Pretty easy from my point of view.
I started working ,tracing the pencil on my canvas gently ,forming the outline of the things.

Nothing sound funnier than Minho getting scolded by Nabi. 

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-"Was it that funny to you?!" Minho asked me on our way to get something to ea because we finished classes.

-"Was that funny to call me cold bowl of soup?"

-"You got a point."

While we were waiting in line to pay for our food I noticed Felix in the crowd , sitting and eating at a table with his friend. His friend made a joke that seemed to make Felix laugh . The moment I heard his laugh , a fluttery sensation cropped up inside my stomach.

-"Who are you looking at with that expression on your face,hmm? You look like you're about to be hit my a truck."

My smile dropped so fast and I turn to face Minho.
-"HEY , why are you glaring at me?"

-"I'm hoping you'll spontaneously combust."

-"What a meany." Minho replied , rolling his eyes.

-"Keep rolling your eyes , maybe you'll find your brain back there."

-"You know what?! I simply give up with you!"

We choose a table near a pillar and we started dipping in. The food canteen doesn't even have a taste. It's like eating ramen without the noodles in it.

I take a look at Minho and he was already about to finish it. He was serious when he told me he loves any kind of food.  I search in the cafeteria but he seemed to have disappeared once again.

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It's past midnight and the starts look mesmerizing amongst the moon. The cold breeze hitting my face while running is like a drug. I can't get enough of it because it makes me feel pleased.

I take a sip from my water bottle and then search my pockets for my phone. I should head back to the dorms now and take a nap .

Felix is probably sleeping by now so I shouldn't make much noise to not disturb his sleep.
I silently open the door and close it behind me. I place my shoes carefully and make my way to the balcony to have a smoke first .

Maybe I'll take Felix's lighter again.

Slowly approaching the glass door , I see a figure leaning against the cold bar. The breeze hitting his whole body causing his hair to wave  softly along with his white T-shirt .

-" How comes you are awake at this hour?" my voice makes him shiver .

-" You know how much I hate you?!"

-"Why, I'm lovely" I grinned and leaned against the wall.

-"Are you into this weird things? You always enjoy scaring me."

I bring the cigarette to my mouth and light it up with his red lighter.

-"Isn't that my lighter?"

-"Maybe.Do you want it back?"

-"No,keep it. I don't even use it."

I look at it ,holding it in my hand than I toss it in my pocket. I glance at the blond boy who was watching over the night sky. His eyes were sparkling like they matched the sea of stars.

-"Hey Felix."

-"Yeah?"

-"Do you ever feel like you're searching for something but you don't know what for?"

My eyes were fixated on him. Before talking , he cleaned the dust on his T-shirt from the bar and changed his posture, now facing me.

-"You know, sometimes you don't have to find the answers. I think it can be enough to just admit you're  lost. For now."

-"You know, you would be a good psychologist."

-"Maybe. Who knows what the future brings us."

We stay in silence for some minutes , enjoying the night view , the cold air and the company we keep to each other . I used to feel lonely in a place full of people , with my dad , with my friends , but with him I feel at peace.

-" You know, you're not alone in this . I've been hoping that, one day , i'll have that source to motivate me— something more than stubbornness or spite. I wanna feel like I'm living!"

-"I'm to sober for this shit to be honest." I replied while cracking my knuckles with the cigarette in my mouth.

I finish it and put it in the ashtray.  I bring another to my mouth and I was about to light it up.
-"Isn't that my lighter?"

I jump when I hear his his words and somehow I get burnt by the tiny flame. I drop the lighter on the ground and bit from the cigarette.

-" Hey hey , are you ok?!" I heard Felix's voice and feeling him getting closer to me . I see him putting his hands over mine and holding them together.

-"We sure have something with burning ourselves!" he chuckled after he made sure I wasn't badly hurt.
God damn.

He glanced back at me , locking eyes. He looked an ethereal angel with that divine smile on his archangelic face. I wished I could keep this moment to last more.

Felix's phone suddenly starts buzzing and wakes us up from whatever was going on.

-"You should probably go to sleep ! I'm going to answer this call real quick . Don't wait for me."

I watch as he disappears once again from my sight.
Maybe I was delusional or not , I'm sure I saw that soft pink blush blooming in his cheeks.