Lighter to my heart || hyunlix

Chapter 6

Felix's Pov

It seems like the weather is on my side today. I had to walk to the university with my luggage.Thanks god it didn't rain. The sun's rays reflecting on my face , making it a little hard for me to see .

-"Hi ,Felix! Come along!" I hear Nabi's voice.
I try approaching her , watching my steps .

-"Are you ready for the best trip of your life?"

-" I'm sure it will be entertaining!"

-"Ah I want you to meet someone. Here, she's a freshman just like you , her name is Soo Yun! Hope you guys get along!"

I look at Soo Yun not knowing exactly what to say , Fearing that anything I'd say would make her to dislike me. As she was about to say something , a voice from behind closes her mouth.

-"Felix?"

I turn around and face Hyunjin . The bright light on his face made him shine even more . Gosh, Hyunjin you're so beautiful the stars would cry.

-"Hi!" I try to cover the awkward silence.

-"What are you doing here?"

-"Ahh, long story .."

I feel my backpack sliding down my shoulders but I couldn't do anything because my hands were full. Hyunjin notice it and quickly try putting it back on place but suddenly I feel him pulling me a little closer. He doesn't say a word, we just stare into eachother's eyes .

I feel his eyes tracing down from my face to my nose and slowly to he lips then back to my eyes. It was like he was asking for permission.

-"Alright everyone! Let's get going, we have a long way until we reach our destination!

-"Hyunjin, we should probably go too.."

I turn and head up to place my luggage and backpack safely . Should I ask about...that?
I turn to go take a seat in the van . It was indeed colorful and pretty. It was probably painted by Nabi.
I choose a seat near the window and make myself comfortable.

Seconds later I see Hyunjin and Nabi getting on last .

-"Yo, Hyunjin , come sit in the back!" I hear a voice calling for him.

As he walks past the seats , he takes a look at the back of the van and then at me. Doesn't take him long to think about the next moves and just places his backpack down to his feet and sits beside me.
He smiles and then searches his pockets for something.

I turn my head to the window because I enjoy peaceful rides where I can watch the view outside.
I feel a warm touch on my cheek . Hyunjin turned my head to him and put one of his airpods in my ear .

I look at him in confusion but he just smiles.
I quickly look away trying to hide my face from his sight because I could feel my cheeks getting red. I couldn't resist and a smile just formed from my lips.
His aura was a warm chaos.

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-"Ok everybody! Let's place our easels , canvas and paints first."

I take all my thing and start placing them close to me . I put my canvas on the easel carefully. I glance at Hyunjin , he was in the back ,talking to another guy from the club.

-" I want you to start painting the ocean, the waves , the sand , everything you see in your own artstyle. "

The sound of the waves was like a gentle symphony , playing in perfect harmony with itself. It crashes along the shoreline . The dull light of the sun somehow manages to kindle my senses in a way I had never seen or felt before.

Everything felt like it came to a standstill and the effect of the light made the scene look like one in a painting.

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It's already late and I could here everybody in the back grilling meat , joking around , eating . I look into distance and all I could see is pitch black.

I get a nostalgic feeling , everysight and sound stimulates a sense of composure and serenity; and the effect is heightened by the absence of the noisy bustle of our daily work, only to be exposed to the never-ending music of the waves, and to breathe the fresh air instead of the stale atmosphere of classrooms.

It is not easy to describe the effect of this sight; it can only be strangely deciphered in my mind.
I make myself comfortable on the now cold sand ,letting the breeze hit my face. It's probably my favorite thing .

It keeps me away from feeling so alone all the time. It's like an escape from the unpleasant reality.

From behind , I hear sounds of bottles hitting together. I turn just to see Hyunjin coming next to me. He sits down and hands me a bottle.

-"Let's have a drink."
-"Alright!"

I open mine and just drink up like I was drinking water. I usually don't do things like this , in fact I hate alcohol but I felt the urge to .

I put the bottle down wipe the corner of my mouth.
It will probably take a while for the it to kick in so I shouldn't worry so much . I glace at Hyunjin and his eyes were fixating the ocean .

Oh man.

Looking at you makes me look so stupid.

-"Am I burden to you too?" I hear Hyunjin sighing.

I wonder why does he feel this way.

-"You're not." I replied."A burden is something you're forced to carry against your will, and I freely choose you to be a part of my life.That means you aren't a burden to me."

-"How comes you're so good with words?"
-"I never thought that. "

-"I'm glad I met you, Felix."

He takes a sip from the bottle again.

The moon was beautiful tonight. The stars too , but only one was shining brighter than all of them .

I decide to take a look at Hyunjin to see if he's still sober but he was already looking at him. His sudden change in his gaze took me off guard. Same look from earlier today.

-"I wish you wouldn't look at me like that."
-"Like what?"
-"I don't know." I hesitate for a moment. " Like you could love me."

The silence forms between us . Hyunjin takes the bottle, drinks all of it , puts it down and wipes his mouth.
I look at him , not necessarily waiting for a respond. We are both a little drunk after all.
Or maybe I am actually.
He looks at me with his honest eyes .

-"Can I kiss you?" He shamelessly asks.

I don't respond , I just grab his face with my hands and touch his lips with mine . They were soft and the taste of beer on them made my head go crazy.
I was too dizzy to think of anything . Everything was spinning. He presses his hands gently over mine making me feel butterflies in my stomach to the feeling of his touch.
Why is this happening?
I don't even know.
Is this love?
Probably not.

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