Lighter to my heart || hyunlix

Chapter 12

Hyunjin's Pov

The aching in my skull ebbs and flows like a cold tide, yet the pain is always there. I understand at once why they call it a hangover, for it feels as if the blackest of clouds are over my head with no intention of clearing until late afternoon.

I slowly opened my eyes , trying to adjust with the light in the room. The heavy smell of alcohol was still strong .

I turned to look at Felix but he was nowhere to be seen. The bed was all messy , the blanket was almost on the floor and his clothes and shoes were also gone. My arm which he slept on was now cold.

I figured out that he might have gone to the dorms but a part of me still was worried and disappointed because he just left like this.

I got up to gather my things and put on my shoes. I was still dizzy because of last night.
When I got downstairs, there were still a few people passed out on the coaches, floor and some chairs from the bar.
I was a little disgusted because of the smell and of the heat in the room so I got out as fast as I could.
The freezing air of a morning was so much refreshing.
Before going in the dorms I stopped at a convenience store to get some medicine for Felix just in case and some fruits to make a fruit salad.
I always feel better after eating fruits in the morning after a drinking night so maybe it would work for him too.

I entered the dorm and place the stuff I bough carefully on the counter so I could get my shoes off.
First thing I notice is that Felix's shoes were not there.

-"Felix?" I called out for his name but I didn't get any answer.
I was sure he was still sleeping he might have put his shoes to get washed but when I got to the bedroom everything was cleaned up and no trace of Felix.
I could feel the panic and fear embracing me all over.
With my hands shaking I opened the cupboards and all of his clothes were gone.
I was left alone again.

Sweat beaded down my forehead as I tried to control my shaking hands. My heart thudded in my chest, and blood pounded in my ears. It was hard to breathe as if a vice was gripping me. One minute I was all hot and sweaty, and the other felt like I would freeze to death. I could feel the tears rolling down my cheek, my mind unable to grasp what was happening around me.

I started looking for my phone and when I founded , I tried typing Felix's number with my fingers shaking.
It took me a while because I tried slowing down my breath.

"The number you have dialed is not in service. Please try again later or leave a voice message."

No.

"The number you have dialed is not in service. Please try again later or leave a voice message."

Ain't no way.

"The number you have dialed is not in service. Please try again later or leave a voice message."

I let my phone slide from my hand. My legs were about to gave in but I rushed to the front door and slam it behind me .

I started running outside looking everywhere. I began yelling his name still having a little hope that I'll be able to find Felix and stop him from leaving.

I checked the whole campus until I felt like I was about to pass out because I couldn't breath anymore. I tried getting to the closest bench when I heard a voice .

-"Hyunjin?" I turned and begged it was Felix .

But all I could see through my blurry vision was a tall figure with brown hair which was for sure Minho.

-"What on Earth happened to you, dude?!"

He rushed to me . I could feel his worry in his tone.
Minho tried placing me gently on the be bench.
I couldn't even form a word properly.

-"Alright, take your time and tell me."

-"He-"  Hot tears were running down my cheeks and the air was getting even harder to breath."He left me." I said while crying out loud. "It's- It's impossible to understand-d how he's not coming back but I can't say it out loud!" I said choking on my own saliva.
I felt like seriously dying in that moment.

-"Come here."

Minho hugged me tight and I just let it all out and cried just like a baby in front of him.

-" You know" he pauses for a moment. " Sometimes, you are going to miss a person who was an almost to you . And feel sad because there is no name for that feeling. "

Minho let it go of the hug and looks at me.

-" You might feel it in a way that makes you tired to your very bones. I only want you to know that It's alright to miss him , to be sad or to cry. If it gets too hard to bear alone , feel free to contact me. I'm only a call away."

I don't know what would I do without Minho as my friend. Even with his stupidity , he's the strongest person I've ever met.

-"And you know what? I think you know how to love better than any of us . That's why you find it all so painful."

And those words helped me a lot more than I thought. It completed one piece from my puzzle of confidence.

-"Come on cold bowl of soup, cry as much as you need and then let's go get some ice cream."

I chuckled a little through my tears. Even tho I felt like dying , Minho did his best to always keep me smiling when I needed it.

-"Let's go" I replied while wiping the tears from my face.

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