Lighter to my heart || hyunlix

chapter 9

Chapter 9

Hyunjin's Pov

It's the break before our art club classes . Felix is sleeping next to me , with his head placed on his arms.
I didn't get to talk to him after what happened.
He just disappeared the whole day and came late .
He went straight to sleep. His eyes were like bloodshots . It seemed like he cried a lot.
I wonder what happened.
-" Hi Hyunjin! Did you take notes in Arts and humanities?"
I tilted my head to see the new girl in our club , Soo Yun.
-"Ah , yeah but aren't you a freshman?"
-"Yeah but they might help me because I want to take the same path as you.Can I borrow them? Let me treat you to a snack later!"
-"No problem."
-"Are you serious?"
I see Soo Yun raised her hand , waiting for me to high five . I do it and laugh. She's not that bad.
I lend her my notes from my backpack.
-" I'll get you anything you want , I won't be messy and I'll give it to you straight after!"
I make an Ok sign with my hands and smile.
-"See you later !"
I waves back but suddenly I felt a sting in my arm .
I jump a little and turn to Felix.
It seemed like he pinched me.
-"Why did you pinch me?"
-"I was annoyed."
-" What made you annoyed?"
He didn't respond ,instead he went back to sleep.
There he goes again with his strange behavior.

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-"Hey dude, since when did you became so close with that blond guy?" Changbin asked me while taking a sip from his chocolate milk .
-" We are roommates actually."
-"Seriously?"
-"Yeah , but that's not how we actually met. Remember the night before the first day of school when you and Seungmin got drunk?"
-"Jesus, you don't have to be so precise! You could have only said the night before first day of school?!"
Changbin angrily took another sip.
-"Anyway that's not the point , you dumbass." I hit him in the head . " Listen if you really are so curious."
-" Alright, alright! "
-" I went out for a smoke but forgot my lighter and he somehow appeared in front of me and it happened to have one with him so he lent it to me.We had a small talk and then I thought I'll never see him again but surprise! He's now my roommate."
-"Ahhh Hyunjinie~ but isn't this fate?" He makes a stupid face while looking at me. "Ah seriously It's like you're living your own romance book story, it makes me jealous. How are you always so lucky? "

I never considered myself lucky. In fact, I always thought it's tiring .

-"Better find you a girl fast because you're seriously talking a lot."
-"Really? Would you do that?" Changbin started winking at me in a funny way.
-"Come on , we have P.E. , let's change!"
I start heading out to the lockers room , leaving Changbin behind.
-"Are you seriously leaving me behind?!"

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I try wiping the sweat that was dripping from my forehead. It's so hot outside and we had to run 5 laps around the whole field . Our P.E. teacher is feral.
I take the bottle of water and drink it all up like I have never ever seen water .
I change into a white simple T-shirt and wash my face off with cold water.
"Hey."
I turn and face Minho who was just coming in to sleep. The boys locker is usually quiet so he often choose to take a nap here.
-"Hi Minho! How are things going?"
-"I don't know, I'm sleepy. " I watch as he puts his bag down , takes of his jacket and place it as a pillow. He takes a seat on the old mattress in the corner .
-"How are you feeling?"
How should I respond to that? Do I really know?
I look at myself in the mirror.
How do I feel?
-"It's ... good. "
-"Come on , Hyunjin, tell me. You know, your eyes are kinda easy to read."
-"I'm confused. There is- there is actually someone."
-"Aha, finally , I really was curious who was the one that made Hyunjin's ears go red again."
-"That's not the point Minho ! " I shrug.
-"Go on."
-" Well, It's different when I am with them. I feel like , I don't have to put a mask on when he's around me. "
-" Hyunjin, you know, you don't have to make everyone like you. It's not your duty."
I don't know what to say about this.
-"And ... It feels like I'm freed from everything when he is around. He is  comfort ,security and need , all in one."
I take a look at Minho through the mirror, he changed his position into a more pleasant one,facing the wall.
-"It's all about for who you look in a crowded room.That's where your heart belongs. "
-"Wait you mean you saw-"
-"That's all I had to say .My energy says no more. Good night!"
Maybe Felix really feels like home.

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It seems like Felix is at his part time job. The dorm is so lonely and sad when he isn't here. It's like it has lost all his colors.
He looked pretty down today too. I'm worried. What if he's not eating well ?
Then , an idea strikes in my head. What if a try cooking something delicious for him?
I rush to the kitchen and check the fridge. It's perfect! I have everything I need. Let's try making so brownies. I remember him saying It's his favorite dessert.
After I put everything on the oven , I heard the door unlock. Felix is finally home.
I peak over to see is mood.
-"Hi Felix."
-"Oh , Hi Hyunjin."
Felix starts walking towards me. On his way , he placed his bag on the sofa and took off his cardigan.
-"Are you cooking something?"
-"Yeah! How does it smell?"
-"Funny"
-"Oh come on , meanie!"
-"Hyunjin , do you want to watch the new movie that came out with me ?"
-"Sure! I have to wait around 40 minutes until It's done so let's go!"
-"Wanna tell me what are you cooking?"
-"Nope."
-"Fair enough."
Felix takes the lead to the living room. He moves the bag and takes a seat. While he's logging on Netflix, I take a seat as well , next to him and make myself comfortable. His hair looks so soft , it makes him look angelic.
-"Felix, how was your day?"
-"Ah, it was fine honestly, the manager from the place I work at made me feel a lot better , she made lots of jokes but she's so bad at making them and that makes it more funny.Oh I forgot to tell you. Yesterday was my birthday actually."
-"WHAT? You're joking, right?"
-"Nope!"
-"AHHHHH and I didn't see you all day , you disappeared! " I make a sad pouty face. "Wait, then, take the food I'm making now as a late present"
-"You're so strange sometimes,Hyunjin."
-"What do you mean??" I fake cry to Felix.
-"Stop whatever you're doing!" He giggled.
Everything feels so soft and warm when I'm talking with you.
I think I like you a little too much.
After a while I look at the watch. An whole hour had past.
-"FELIX! I FORGOT ABOUT THE FOOD!"
I rush to the kitchen and open the oven . I take out the brownies. They look so bad.
-"What even is this ? They look like smashed potatoes?" I hear Felix laughing.
-"Stop bullying my brownies!!"
But I glanced at Felix just to see him laughing his ass off. If I could have bottled the sound and gotten drunk on it every night, I would have.
-"Happy late birthday, I guess...?" I look at him with an awkward expression.
-"Next time call me when you wanna cook something, ok?" he chuckled.
-"I swear I'm capable of cooking too! I just- I just got too into the movie! Yeah, that's it!"

I actually wasn't watching the movie this whole time .
Felix was the main attraction of my eyes.

-"Wanna do it all over again? This time right?" Felix asked me.
-"Yes , please! Teach me your ways , master of cooking!"

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