Big Time Rush

Chpt 11 The Double Date

I heard my door open, which is weird because I locked it yesterday. I haven't gotten out of bed yet. It feels like my heart was ripped out of my chest, squished in front of me, bandaged up in glass jeweled sandpaper then shoved back into my chest. To sum it up; I'm hurt.

Rolling over lazily, I see Katie there. A small genuine smile pulls on my lips, but I force it to be bigger. Sitting up, I pull the blankets aside, so she can hop in. With a tiny smile she jumps in. I cover us both up and move the pillows, so I am sitting up.

"I heard what happened" she starts off.

"I-..." my voice gets caught in my throat.

I haven't said a word since I talked to that girl. I feel terrible for not telling Dave what happened yet. That is just another thing to add on to my ugly feelings that are spiraling in my chest. Breathing in through my nose, I force a smile and turn to Katie.

"I'm not going to just defend James; he is like a brother and all, but you are my friend. Whatever you need, I'm here, we all are" she said.

I have a genuine smile as I give her a side hug. This is the most she has ever shared with me when it comes to touchy feely stuff. 

"Don't worry, nothing between us is going to change, Katie. I made a promise I don't plan on breaking" I found my voice again.

"I don't know what to do next" she admits.

I laugh softly and give her a little squeeze.

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All I wanted to do was cry in bed for days. Live like bears during winter, but noooo. The shy boy I once knew has booked us a double date. It hasn't even been 3 days and Dave wants me to move on. Shouldn't he be heartbroken too? I mean his girlfriend did cheat on him.

When I told Dave what happened he was angry for a second. Then bomb, he got us both dates. I don't understand how LA changed him when it comes to dating. It is honestly mind blowing. Still, LA hasn't changed me...

With a throbbing heart and heavy chest, I get ready for the date. I don't plan on being serious with this guy. It's just to get Dave off my back. I miss the old James, the one I didn't see that day.

He has tried to call me, text me, he even stopped by, but I can't face him yet. It hurts too much. I thought I knew him, I thought he would never hurt me, that he would protect me from getting hurt. I guess that's just what he wanted me to think. I don't know... I'm just so confused and hurt.

Walking out my room with a frown, I see Dave dressed fancy mixed with casually. He doesn't look up from his phone as he told me it's time to go. Still, without giving me a glance he leads me out the apartment, into the elevator and into the lobby.

I hold my elbow, and sadly look at the floor as we walk. Suddenly, Dave grabs my hand and spins me around. I forced a small smile when I faced him again. He has a charming smile as he wraps an arm over my shoulder and pulls me closer to him. In the car, it was the same how it was before that tiny moment, the cold shoulder.

Is he mad at me for bringing James into our lives?

I didn't force myself to smile until I was in front of my blind date. He is cute, but... I'm just not in the mood to be introduced to anyone. Still, I am here, and it will be rude to be rude. Dave sat next to his date across the small table while I sat next to Luke, my date.

The conversation was all about him. How he came to LA to be an actor, how he is living the dream and all his favorite things. He didn't give me a chance to talk unless it was to agree with him.