Only You....

A Marriage Proposal and An Old Friend

I had a long tiring day, work load was not much but seeing Arnav in front of my eyes all day long was not easy..Though we parted our ways long ago, I still feel very connected with him as if we still have a relationship, when ever he looks at me I feel something in my heart.. I feel he is pulling me towards him like a magnet..May be it's true you actually can never hate someone you are still in love with!!

Yes, though I don't admit in front of anyone I very well know, I still love him a lot..I am mad at him, angry at him but that doesn't mean I don't love him..People may say why do I love him after everything he did?? Because it is not in my hand, I tried a lot but I just couldn't unloved him.. May be now I can, he is now in front of my eyes and probably now I can get a closure to move on.. oh forget it!! Whom am I kidding?? In his absence I was not able to do it, how will I do it in his presence!!

Whenever he looks at me today, I tried to read his eyes which was showing a lot of emotion.. sometimes curiosity, sometimes happiness, sometimes anger and a lot of sadness..He called me to his cabin three times today and all for unnecessary reasons..I am still confused what's wrong with him?? What he wants??.. I can understand he wants to talk to me but why, he was giving me silly works in his cabin, I can understand he wants to keep me in front of his eyes but again I don't understand,why??

I was pretty sure about this six months working clause is for me only and for some unknown reason it was giving me a different sensation in my chest..Does it mean, Arnav wants something from me, what?? I don't have anything to offer him..I so wanted to know why is he doing this but to my surprise I got to know from Druhv , it's a new clause this company is adding to every new hire's appointment letters and it again broke my heart a little, how stupid I am, I thought Arnav still thinks about me and I am special to him.. when my heart will understand, I am not special and never was!!

Whenever I go to his cabin I see his name written on the door, I see his smiling picture holding a baby boy in his arms, I see his aura as a owner of the company, I see changes on him and all these gives me happiness as well as pain.. I am happy as Arnav achieved everything he wanted, his life is so perfect and pain because how that's fair??

Arnav broke my heart, He promised me I will be the only one for him and he betrayed..I helped him to get established, I made his dream as mine, I was ready to do anything for him, to go anywhere with him.. I just wanted him and he didn't even give me that..life gave him everything, a successful career, a family, a happy life and I am still there empty handed.. Life is really really unfair!!

I was packing my bag too engrossed in my thoughts when Druhv called me..'Hey Khushi..'

I looked at him and smiled,'Hi..'

'Thank you so much yaar, you saved me today..' I nodded without saying anything, actually by mistake I took the wrong blue file from Arnav's cabin which had all the information about the presentation and I briefed Druhv about it..

'You deserve a treat for this, ASR was clean bold today..' He started laughing.. 'Let's go for a coffee, what say??'

'No thanks, I actually need to go home little early..'
I said politely.. I was tired and wanted to take rest,nothing else..

'Come on Khushi, one coffee will not take much time, plus the coffee shop near our office makes the best hazelnut latte..please don't say no, I want to celebrate with you..' He said making a sad face and I agreed.. He is right, one coffee will actually help me to come out of the exhaustion I was feeling..

'Ok than l am waiting for you outside..' saying that he left and I took my purse to leave, when I turned around I saw Arnav standing there with a smirk..

He came near me and said,'I actually came to ask how was your first day but I guess it went pretty well..'

'Yes it did..Thanks for your concern Sir..' I said maintaining a straight face..