Only You....

One step closer!!

Next morning when I opened my eyes, I saw Arnav seating in his bed, his face was showing little discomfort.. There was a dr. and nurse checking on him..I felt a thud in my chest seeing the dr. and nurse, what happened to him suddenly, why there is a dr.?? How come my sleep didn't break with their noises??

I went near him hurriedly and asked, 'what happens? Are you OK?' Then I looked at the dr. and asked, 'What's wrong with him, he was fine last night??'

Arnav shook his head negatively and said in a soft tone, 'Relax,I am fine..'

I looked at the dr. for confirmation and he said, 'Yes, Mrs. Raizada, your husband is absolutely fine..We are just doing a routine check up and we need to change his dressing too..'

'Why didn't you wake me up??' I asked looking at Arnav..

'Mr. Raizada said not to wake you up, he even instructed us to talk quietly..' Dr. replied with a chuckle..

I was little surprised hearing that and Arnav said, 'You were tired so I thought not to wake you up..' I didn't reply to him..How should I reply when my heart started aching seeing the old Arnav who used to care for me like I am his most precious possession..

Dr. Instructed the nurse to change Arnav's dressing and took his leave.. While changing the dressing the nurse told me, 'Mrs. Raizada see very carefully how I am doing it, then you can do it by yourself at home..'

Hearing that I gulped and looked at Arnav with little difficulty, I was little embarrassed to match my gaze with him..He was looking at me without blinking.. I was feeling goosebumps seeing his instance gaze on me and decided to stay quiet..

When she left, Arnav was looking at me with wonder, I know what was going on in his mind, he was surely confused why I didn't oppose or say anything when I was addressed as Mrs. Raizada.. l don't know why I was feeling so shy, my cheeks were getting red and warm..I looked down and said, 'Actually last night, this nurse thought I am your..' I said with hasitancy , 'Wife.. I was not in the state at that time to correct her, if I would have said anything now it would have been awkward..Sor..sorry'

'Did I say anything?? Why are you saying sorry..' He also said looking down there was sadness on his voice and eyes, I wish I could have read his mind.. I so wanted to know what made him sad suddenly..

Arnav took his phone from the bedside table and called his driver, instructed him to come to the hospital..He also made few calls to his office and Aman..I didn't interrupt him and avoided talking or looking at him, an edgy awkwardness was evident between us..He was discharged from the hospital late afternoon..

From hospital to my house Arnav was very quiet, he was pressing his lips together and seating on the back of the seat closing his eyes.. I knew he was in pain but will he admit it???..I guess no.. I was feeling extremely bad seeing his condition, I hold his hand to show my support and he put his head on my shoulder closing his eyes, holding my hand more firmly..He was looking very tired..

When Arnav's car stopped in front of my house.. I was hesitating to leave as I didn't want him to go, he was having pain, he needed care..Who will take care of him?? May be his family will, his house helps will or he may hire a nurse or someone for time being but will they take care of him like I will do..My heart was breaking into pieces seeing his pale face, he is in this condition because of me, tears started forming in my eyes..

It doesn't matter how much he hurts me, how much mad I am at him.. I can't see him in pain, I can never be in peace seeing his painful face..

He looked at me with a frown and cupped my face, 'What happened Khushi, you look worried??'

I was so confused what to do and I did something I didn't expect myself of doing, I asked him.. 'Arnav, agar mein tumse kuch mangu to mana to nahi karoge na..(Arnav,if I ask something will you please give it to me??)'