the witch and her beta mate

chapter 44 - I can't do this

sienna p.o.v.

As I said goodbye to Jayden, Sarah teleported us to our coven. We landed right in front of Rachel who was just about to walk in our office. A scream escaped from Rachels lips, not expecting us to be there. 

" You both have to stop doing that, yous scared me." she said putting her hand over her heart in shock making myself and Sarah laugh.

We all headed inside the office as they took a seat in front off my office table and I sat behind it in my normal chair. As soon as I sat down Rachel instantly started talking. 

" So I have yet to actually make a lot of progress when it comes to finance as I will be honest I have not got down to it yet and wanted you to be there for that bit sienna. However I have made progress on starting the plans on a park for the children." Rachel said getting straight to the point thankfully.

I nodded my head as though to say carry on. She pulled out a huge piece of paper and started showing me the plans of what she thinks would be good and the idea of where to have this park but I told her I will have another good look at it tonight in case I want to add more or less to it and also because I'm not sure about the area as I did originally have another place of where it could be in mind. 

We talked a lot more about what she has thought about idea ways for our coven and showed me everything that I had told her to do before I left, that it was done. We talked a lot about the finance situation and before I knew it we was talking about.....

" I got to admit there are a lot of people that are happy you still took over. most people sienna but there are a few I have heard are not happy about it." Rachel said with a sigh. 

I nodded my head. 

" I understand why most would not be happy Rachel. I am here to earn there trust, to protect, help and guide them all. That is what I am here for and that is what I will prove. No matter how long it takes." I said honestly. 

Rachel smiled and nodded. 

" You will do an amazing job at that. I know you will." Sarah said softly, 

" I hope so. I want them all to know i am not my mother and nothing like her." I said narrowing my eyes at the idea of anyone thinking I am like her,

" I think most already know that. Soon everyone will though. I just know it." Rachel said. 

I nodded my head. 

" Another thing is that I want you to set a meeting up in half an hour with everyone including all children so I can leet them know that Jayden and hunter will be coming here a few times more so Jayden." I said to Rachel. 

Rachel cleared her throat. 

" I am not sure people will agree with you on that. Do you not worry the people who are already putting there trust in you that they will stop?" Rachel asked with worry. 

" Are you loosing trust in me? be honest," I said softly. 

Rachels eyes widened in and a frown appeared on her face. 

" of course not." Rachel said and I could see she was telling the truth. 

" Then if they really trusted me they still will. However how is anyone suppose to trust me or my mate if they never meet him or give us both the chance." I said softly. 

Rachel smiled and nodded. 

" you are right." she said, 

" I know." I said with a chuckle making Sarah and Rachel laugh. 

"Alright I will go ahead and set this meeting up." Rachel said before saying goodbye and leaving me and Sarah in the room alone. 

" You are going to do just fine you know. You are so good at this already. I do not know how you do it." Sarah said making me frown. Not because I was not happy but because I felt her message had a whole other meaning. 

" I could not so this with out you and Rachel." I said honestly. 

Sarah laughed but my frown deepened. 

" I am serious Sarah. I really could not have, you have both helped me so much. You both helped my confidence and make me believe I can do it. You both being there when I need it helps an helping me boost my confidence. Now whats going on? I know something is wrong." I said softly. 

Tears came to Sarah's eyes.

" I do not know if I can do it Sienna." Sarah said with a sob. 

My eyes widened and I rushed towards her. 

" Do what?" I asked slightly confused and hugged her instantly.

" Luna." She said taking me by complete surprise. I almost choked on my own saliva. 

" What? What do you mean?" I asked slightly confused and concerned.

" I know I sound stupid Sienna as after all I am an alphas mate but I am not sure I can be a Luna. I want to be I really do but I am so worried I will not be good enough or make mistakes or even too many mistakes. Becoming Luna you have to be strong Sienna because otherwise you are risking everyone's life, I just don't think I am strong enough. I fear I am not only going to fail Hunter but also the entire pack." She blurted it all out so fast I almost had to take a minute to understand what she was saying.

" Do you really believe you are not strong enough Sarah?" I asked sadly and shocked and by her staying quite I got my answer. 

I sighed and shook my head. 

" want to know what I think about you? I think you are the strongest person I have ever met. Not because of your powers even though they are great, But because of how you carry yourself even after all the stuff you have been through. You are still nice to those who are not to you. You do not let anything get you down  especially in front of others and you are so protective and kind to everyone. For crying out loud you still protected me and was kind to me after all that my mother and I put you through. Sienna you freaking took down my mother not just with your powers but also through actual thoughtfulness and a straight head after knowing what she did. You put your trust in this pack, Hunter and me, Now you need to put some trust in yourself. We are all here every second of it like you are with us. You have to remember you are not alone." I spoke and I spoke it from my heart. Every bit I just said to her was the truth.

I could see that my words really touched her but they really are not just words they are my beliefs and truths. I am forever grateful for Sarah, I always will be. She did so much for me before we even knew we were sisters, before she even knew she could actually trust me.

" do you really think all that about me?" She asked with tears running down her eyes. 

" of course I do." I said softly. 

she sobbed before hugging me tightly. 

" You are right. I can do this. As long as I have all of you lot I can do this." She said nodding her head although I do not think she was telling me she can do this, I think she was telling herself. 

I smiled and nodded my head but before I could say anything else Rachel walked in. 

" Hey guys. Everyone is ready for the meeting." Rachel said and to be honest I did not realize how long me and Sarah had been speaking.