Blood Royals Bonus Book: Prince Adryan & the Throne

Chapter 29: ...I Loved You

Adryan's POV
"You feel tight. I'm going to pull out and give it a moment before I try again."

When I pulled away, I noticed the scarlet stain. I checked myself to see if it's me. Could it be her? Selina? A virgin? Really? No. Selina a virgin?

I lay beside her, registering the surprise that has hit me. Nothing about her suggests virtue. Vice, yes. She's dark and as naughty as I am.

"Is it the lavender?" She asked me. I paid attention to her. She's looking up at the ceiling too. Why am I seeing her differently? For some reason it feels like I'm meeting w beautiful woman for the first time. Something has changed. "Did it remind you of her?"

Lavenders will always remind me of Clover. Many were out nights under the starry night sky making love surrounded by lavenders.

"From the moment I walked in, yes. I thought of her. It was a scent so dear to me because I would always make love to her at Lavender Lake. But now... at this moment... it's not the lavender Selina. That's not the reason."

She turned her head to look at me. I held her gaze.

"Is it me? If you don't want me just go." Her voice is delicate. Her green eyes are glistening with tears. "Don't humiliate me any further than I have already been through today!" She sat up and faced away from me. "Do you know how degrading it is to appraised by strangers? Do you know how difficult it was to let Emory kiss me?"

Does she know how angry it made me to see the pictures?

I caged her between my legs and I rest my head on her back. She has an addictive warmth  and skin as soft as petals.

"I'm grateful for what you did today. It must not have been easy." I acknowledged her hard work.

"If I was Clover, would you send me to do it?"

"No." I answered honestly.

She tried to leave but I held on to her.

"Then why did you send me?"

"Because you get things done." I answered.  I trust Selina do much I would leave her in charge of my army. "Because I don't need to drop everything to protect you. You can handle yourself quite well. You are not just tough Selina. You are a fighter and you are clever. I trust you to see anything through. I wouldn't have sent Clover because I would need to be there to serve as protection. She's weak. She's timid. She is unreliable. She's everything you're not."

"Also because you love her."

At this point, I m not sure what I feel for Clover. I know I'm holding onto something but I am also trying to grasp something new... Selina.

"It has nothing to do with my feelings. It is exactly what I have told you."

"Do you want this? I don't want it to be a duty to you. If you don't want to, then leave."

"I want to."

I wish she knew how badly I have wanted this. For me it started a few days after we wound up in the Chrystal Isles. I kept myself in check, trying to find out if she would want the same. I'm not used to being tame. When I want quick gratification, I go after it. Even with Clover, I made my move much sooner than I have Selina. When she demanded it as compensation for today, I was relieved not to be the one looking for a reason to demand it. I'm here because I want her.

"Then why have you stopped?"

The first time I attached emotions to intimacy was with Clover. With any other woman, it was purely sex. I didn't think and I didn't feel. I got my gratification and moved on. I thought I could do that with Selina. But from our moment in the cabin, I started to feel different. I have attached emotions to our intimacy. When I kiss her, when I touch her, it's not just about getting harder and hitting a climax. It's a connection. It moves my heart.