The wrong lover

Chapter 3

- Peeta's PoV -

I can't stand the idea of what they might be doing to Katniss this moment. That's when the TV in Lillian's compartment turn on and I feel confused as it's the Capitol's intro. I listen deeply on what's going on but yet I feel deaf. I'm shaking so uncontrollably as they change the camera showing Katniss, alive. 

- Katniss. I say even though I know she can't hear me.

I still can't hear what they are saying but the moment I do I hear this.

- Yes, I love you Peeta... I can't support you if you support this rebellion. She says, I got lost in my head as she said those four words. I love you Peeta. Keeps ringing in my head. 

She can't support me if I support this. I thought I needed to do this for her but now she doesn't want me to. Something feels wrong as they turn it off. I really need to see this tape again, I hope president Coin saved it.

- Where is President Coin, I need to see if she got this on tape. I have a strange feeling she was trying to tell us something in secret. I say to Haymitch.

- Follow me Peeta. Haymitch says standing up.

He looks to be on the edge of tears and so am I. I let it out on the way thinking about Katniss. The color of her dress was her favorite, she looked so beautiful. She would have looked better if she wasn't shaking uncontrollably aswell. She looked uncomfortable even though the chair probably felt like heaven. She even looked down at her leg a couple of time and I have no idea why, that is what I need to find out. 

We get there and Coin is flipping through the tape just as I want to do.

- Hello president Coin. May I see the tape of Katniss interview. I have something I need to see, I thought about it after. I say trying to hold in my anger, she was the reason Katniss is in that hell hole.

- Yes of course Mr Mellark. We have had specialist watching and she seems to be in perfect condition, nothing under the makeup. That seems good but she might just have woken up from the lightning. She has gotten some treatment it looks like and her eyes are filled with fear. We don't know what mental pain she has been given. President coin says.

The tape begins rolling again and I look deeply in her eyes looking for any information, that's when I notice something. Her left eye is projecting some sort of imagine, it's the pearl I gave to her in the arena. She is writing something out. It's hard to see and after minutes of trying I finally get it and I stand shock in what it was.

- She was contacting us, she began with help. Later on she explained the situation. I wrote down what she said and I'll read it for you. Help, I'm getting threatened by being the pain of another person, Annie Cresta. She keeps repeating the same message but that is mostly what I saw. I say to her.

- Thank you, you may leave now. She says.

- Are we not going to save her? I ask her confused.

- I got plans for her there, her being showed in terrible conditions further ahead will give the rebels even a bigger push then before. That is her purpose. President Coin says and she sees my anger.

- You can't just let her suffer to fire up the rebellion! She is a human being!! She will do more here then there!!! I yell at her.

- Mr Mellark, I know how you feel about her but now it's not about her or you. It's about this rebellion, whatever we can do to fire it up we do. I would love if you could be our mockingjay since you are better with reading lines. She says.

- In your dreams. I say back to her.

- Mr Mellark, I hope you realize the faster we fire it up we can get her out. Now is not the time, it's way to dangerous and I don't want to lose good men. I'm sorry but that is what I am doing. She says.

- I'll be your stupid mockingjay but I want you to rescue Katniss as fast as possible. I say madly.

- The first opportunity that is not dangerous we will take. I promise you. She says back but the promise doesn't sound real.

Haymitch is standing there with the same skeptical look as I am. 

- Now you may leave. Coin says in an annoyed voice.

I want to attack her but I supress my anger, attacking the president won't make Katniss get her faster. It might actually make her get here slower. Haymitch has to pull me out because I am so skeptic of leaving. 

- I'm sorry Peeta. There is nothing we can do, she barely accepted us from 12 into here. We just have to pray that the time comes quick. Haymitch says holding his arm on my shoulders.

- Why her, you promised me Haymitch. I say as I begin crying.

- Firstly president Coins orders. Secondly, Katniss promise. Haymitch says.

- What did you promise her? I ask him.

- She truly loves you boy. Nothing can take that away from you. Her promise was to save you, no matter the cost. Haymitch tells me.

- No, she would never. I loved her but she did it as an act... I begin before Haymitch interveins.

- Not anymore, she loves you deeply. She was ready to sacrafice herself for you. You must realize it by now. Haymitch says.

We get to the compartments again and Prim is standing outside of the door. Seeing us come back puts a smile on her face, she probably expects good news. Haymitch fills with akwardness as we have to say bad news again. 

- We found her message and it's not good. We should probably not tell it to you. I'm sorry. President Coin is also refusing a rescue for her since it's to risky. She was in good condition physically but not mentally. I agreed to be their stupid mockingjay so this rebellion can get to the Capitol faster before she can't take it anymore. Haymitch says.

- Please tell me, I should get to know. Prim says.

- Okay, she said. Help, I'm getting threatened by being the pain of another person, Annie Cresta. I say and Prim looks worried hearing those words.

- Coin is a monster for letting her get tortured. Prim says crying.

- I know Prim, there is nothing we can do though. I say hugging her tight.

I walk in the compartment and I get to sleep in a bed next to them, they share their bed and it feels wrong. Here is Katniss spot but she isn't here. Everything is wrong and I hate it. I fall asleep knowing I would be dreaming about her, my Katniss.

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