The wrong lover

Chapter 17

- Katniss PoV -

I feel so confused, I thought Snow was good and the rebels were wrong. Wasn't it a rebel that shot me? That's what I heard after Snow yelled out, Get that rebel! He yelled just as the first bullet hit my head. Was he wrong or lying, are they lying to me here? I don't understand. Is it the Capitol lying or the rebels. The Capitol showed me the truth so it can't be them. As I sit with my own thoughts doctors walk in with screens and some syringes. I begin panicking as they did the same in the Capitol.

- No! I thought this was district 13, not the Capitol! I don't want the syringes! It hurts, it hurts! I yell at them and they look at me worried.

- You are in district 13 miss Everdeen. Don't worry about that. We are just testing something new today. It should not hurt a single bit. A doctor says fixing the screen.

- That's how it begun, saying they were gonna test something on me. After that day I recieved the same thing all over again. I say to them.

As the screen turns on I see memories of Prim, my mother and I. These were not bad like the ones the Capitol showed me. As I look at the memories I feel a needle going through my arm. I tense thinking it will be painful, but just as it enters my system I relax. I feel relaxed and for once I believe the things I am seeing infront of me. These memories also felt more realistic then the Capitol once. I don't care if they might not be fully real but if I felt this relaxed during those times it must be real.

- My mother and sister never tried to hurt me. These feels more real then the ones I got shown in the Capitol. I say to them and they look at me happy, they must have succeeded with something.

- Do you want to see them? One of the doctors asks me.

- Sure, I want to talk to my little duck. I say.

- We will get her here for you. Just wait a bit. They say before leaving.

I wait as the doctors leaves the room leaving me with my thoughts again. I really hope the good memories are the truth. I look in the mirror seeing my black eyes fading away and instead my grey eyes appear. I hear the door opening and in walks Prim looking at me with a smile I know is put on.

- You don't have to put on that smile for me little duck. I say to her.

- I heard you wanted to see me, what is it about? She asks walking closer, still with the fake smile put on.

- I saw you and mom. We were eating on some bread that I had gotten. Half of it were burnt I believe. We had starved because it was after our father passed away. We were all three talking and enjoying a bit of bread before storing the rest away. We needed it since it was our only food supply at the time. Is that real Prim? I ask her and tears comes out of her eyes, was it something I said.

She looks at me with tears and I feel a wave of guilt hit me as I believe I said something wrong to her.

- Was it something I said? I never meant to hurt you. I'm so dumb, I'm so stupid. I'm sorry Prim, I'm sorry. I say.

She comes running up and hugs me, how could I refuse her warm embrace around my body. I only wish I could hug her back, these restrains keeps me from holding her.

- Real. She says and now tears are coming out of my eyes aswell.

- I love you little duck. I say to her once she let's go.

- I love you too. Just get better now. I have to leave for work. She says walking out the door.

- Be safe little duck. I say to her as she walks out.

Now I'm left alone with my thoughts. She didn't mean me harm and that warm embrace doesn't feel like the bad memories at all. Perhaps the Capitol did lie to me like they said here. Yet I can't believe how they would lie about Peeta. His memories feels so real and I don't think anything will change my mind about that. My arms, legs, chest and head still hurts a lot by the bullet and bulletholes but I have learnt to get used to it though. Just as I think about Prims smile as she entered my room, perhaps it wasn't fake after all. I just want her back here, hugging me forever, never letting go.

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