The wrong lover

Chapter 24

- Peeta's PoV -

She's handeling me here a lot better then I expected her to do. I'm brushing her hair with my hand and I decide to land a kiss on her forehead. I watch her eyes and they seem overwhelmed. A tear shed down her cheek and I give her a concerned look.

- Katniss, are you okay? I ask her concerned.

- Yeah, I'm fine. She says, I know she is lying.

- Am I making you uncomfortable? I ask her and I'm afraid to hear the answer.

- No, just the kiss. It braught back so many memories, or I think they are memories atleast. It doesn't match what I currently know, I'm just very confused. I say in a tired voice.

- You sound tired, maybe you should get some sleep. My doctor says.

- No, no. Sleep only brings nightmares. Nightmares only causes more confusion, and fear. I say to her trying to keep my eyes awake.

- The good ones are real. Peeta says before kissing my lips and leaving. It had a warm touch to it and I never wanted to pull away. 

I feel weak but when he is around I feel stronger, he makes me feel safe even though I can't trust him. I want him to stay but I don't have the courage to ask him.

- Now get some rest. The doctor says and I fall asleep almost immediatly.

(Nightmare)

It's Rue, she is trapped in the net. I realise it's the 74th Hunger Games. It's a memory and I know what is going to happen, but it feels different. I take her out of the net and I hug her tightly just as I do Rue gets pulled away and ripped apart by mutts, Capitol mutts. 

(End of Nightmare)

I wake up screaming and nobody is here to comfort me or help me. I wish I had the courage to ask him to stay. I might not trust him, and he might have tried to hurt me before. But his warm embrace, I loved it. At this point I wouldn't care if he killed me in the middle of the night, I just want to have a good nights sleep for once in a while. 

I look at the clock to see that it's three a.m. It's going to take a lot of time before anyone gets here, just waiting. 

- Peeta's PoV -

I wake up by hearing screams. I fell asleep in a chair outside of Katniss room. I believe that it was her screams. I look at a clock and see that it's almost three a.m. I want to see if she is okay and comfort her but she probably doesn't want me there. Her memories still aren't good enough for me to visit her on a regular basis. I wish they were. That's when I hear Katniss beginning to talk to herself, or I think herself atleast.

- Why take me back father? I told you, all that I have is pain and suffereing. She says, I want to come in and comfort her. That's when I feel some sort of whisper in an unfamiliar voice.

- Trust Peeta, trust the boy with the bread. The whisper says.

- I'll try, I'll try. Katniss says as if she heard the same thing as I did. 

Katniss has many different bracelets showing everything, maybe I get the mentally insane one right now. I still don't believe it. She has a paralyzed one, then the mentally insane, she also has a brand new one that says Hijacked. The names of who she fears are also written on it. Then they also wrote her presciption on some. 

- Where is the boy with the bread when you need him. I hear her saying through the wall.

I stand up and look through the one way mirror. I look at her and I want to walk in even though I have been warned. Her words can only hurt me mentally, not physically. If she begins to hyperventilate I will just leave her alone and hope she becomes better.

I finally find the courage to open the door and as I walk in she greets me with a huge smile, it doesn't seem fake.

- Peeta. She says in a sincere voice.

- I heard you through the wall. I'm sorry if it sounds creepy. I just didn't want to leave your side. I say trying to explain why I was lying down outside of her room.

- I don't mind it. I don't trust you, I don't know if you did those bad things or not. But that kiss, it was so warm I just couldn't resist your embrace. So can you -can-can you-join-join me? She asks nervously.

- Are you sure? I ask her. Her cheeks are turning red from embarrassment for asking.

- I'm sure, like we did in the train on our victory tour. You know that memory, that nobody got hurt in. Like that. If you don't want it's okay. She says looking a bit sad at me.

I walk up to her and jump under her hospital covers. The bed is very little but I manage to get my arm under her and her head on my heart. I never thought she would be asking me for help to fall asleep. I try to stay as still as possible so I don't hurt her. 

- I love you Katniss. I slip out not even thinking about the side effects it could cost.

- If those good memories are real, I love you too. She says kissing me on my shirt.

I never want this moment to end. I love her so deeply, I know she doesn't trust me but aslong as she doesn't freak out having me here then I love it. 

Only a few short minutes pass before she has fallen asleep, just before she falls asleep I try to move so she can sleep alone. I don't want her to have discomfort because of me.

- No, stay. Will you stay with me? She asks me with her eyes close.

- Always. I answer to her moving back. 

I don't find it to be the comfiest position, I love her but this bed is not comfortable at all. Those chairs in the waiting room isn't much better then these ones though. I'll accept this over any bed, even if it's the comfiest bed in the world. I just want Katniss with me. I'll rather sleep on ground with her in my arms then in the comfiest bed, all I need is her. I can't live without her. I can't function without her. I am a puzzle, and she is the missing piece.

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Suzanne Collins owns the novels and characters, I do not.