Old you - Dua Lipa

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•flashback•

"Go back to your house or something why are you always here" Duas drunk boyfriend screams

Dua looks at me while she's holding him back. I was waiting for her to defend me but she wasn't giving signs that she would. He was mad I was spending too much time over at Duas but she was the one begging me to come. I kept staring at Dua with eyes that were screaming for her to help but she looked down.

"Don't worry I won't be back" I finally say

I get into my car and wait a few minutes to see if she'll come after me but she didn't. I start my engine and just drive and I keep driving for what feels like forever. Why was she on his side?  'She loves him that's why' I said to myself. I begin to cry as I pull over to the side of the road and then something cuts me out from my reality. My phone is ringing and I look to see who it is and it's her. I'm not going to answer her it's done and over with already.

I get home and her car is outside my house. I need to get in as quickly as I can because I'm done I can't deal with seeing her with someone else because I was developing some sort of feelings for her and now she was choosing people over me? She can fuck off for all I care. I care too much unfortunately. I get off my car and speed walk to my house and I hear her car door open.

"Y/n please let's talk"

I stand still and I hate that I do but I respond. I don't want to but I've always had a soft spot for her.

"Leave me alone"

"I couldn't say anything or he would've been way meaner I did it to protect us"

"Us? at the end of the day you're my best friend or you were and it wasn't cool for you to do that"

"What do you want me to do break up with him? I can't"

"Because you love him and you should be with him"

"No you idiot" she says

She grabs me by the waist and kisses me. I can't believe this is happening and she's the one who kissed me. I try to not think and enjoy but by the time I'm done thinking it's already over. She let go and now we were just there no words were able to describe what I just felt.

"I'm sorry I'll go" she whispers

"No wait" I say as I reach for her arm and go in for a kiss again.

This time I didn't think about it and enjoyed every second of it. It felt like a dream because I wasn't sure if Dua felt the same way especially with her having a boyfriend now.

"I'll leave him" she says as she presses her head on mine

•present•

I walk outside in front of the building and she's just there with a cigarette in her mouth and black shades leaning on the wall. I guess no one knew it was her because there were no paparazzi at all. I walk towards her and she throws her cigarette on the ground because she knows how much I hate that she smokes.

"So when's the wedding?" She says

"What" I say

"John quit for a reason no? You're taking my employees now?" She says

"I told him not to and he did it anyways but not because I love him if anything I want him to go back to you because he's a big headache" I say

"I don't understand why you're doing this to me instead of just talking this out and fixing things like I said I need you" she says

"I wish we never got involved like this Dua it would have saved me a lot of tears because to you it was probably something different and for me it was actually love"

"But it happened y/n and there is no way of turning back now so what's the point of making it a miserable thing when we both need each other" she says

"What you don't understand is that I don't need you I love you and yea there's no turning that back but there is walking forward and away" I say

"I do too though" she says

"You what?" I ask

She doesn't say anything she just looks down to where her cigarette landed. Why can you just say it Dua what is stopping you?

"Look Dua it's just best for us to move on with our lives and maybe one day we can be friends again or not" I say as I get ready to turn and leave

"No" she says as she grabs my hand

"I love you okay a lot and I might have never showed it enough but I do" she says

I see a tear running down under her glasses. This is all I wanted to hear but I was afraid she didn't mean it. I was also afraid I forced her into saying it.

"Dua"

"I mean it It's just hard to admit because I'm afraid of the word for a reason" she says looking down

"it's okay" I say as I lift her chin up with my finger

"Can we go somewhere you know private?"she says as she looks around

I nod and lead the way to my car in the parking garage. I open it and we both get in and just stay silent for a few minutes. I think we just didn't know how to feel now that it was out in the air that we L word eachother.

"How's it working for Rita" she ask

I just stare at her and I can't take it anymore so i get on her and kiss her. Our kiss is so aggressive but so passionate she's grabbing my face and pulling me closer each kiss we take. Then I realize where we are.

"Let's not um here" I say

"Yea" she laughs nervously

I sit back on my seat and I'm waiting for her to say something because I have no clue how to start the conversation now.

"I guess you really missed me huh" she says

"You did too" I say

"So what should we do now" she ask

"That's up to you isn't it? You're the one with the boyfriend" I say

"I'm leaving him"

"See I would believe you and I will to be honest but you've said this more than like 10 times so I don't know"

"I'm serious now" she says

"Prove it to me" I say