It's been almost a week since I guess I kinda started being whatever we are with Dua again and she was sort of proving that she meant what she meant. She wasn't sleeping at her own home with her boyfriend anymore because she was coming home to me every night. I was supposed to be satisfied with that I assume but I wasn't.
"Where does your boyfriend think you are right now?" I ask
"My sisters but like I said this is just you know build up so he can sick of me and call things off" she says
"You're smart I guess" I say
"Rude" she says as she punches my shoulder
I get up to go to the restroom.
"You know I can sense when something is wrong right?" She says
This how I know she was my soulmate or something because she was always right and it was like she read my mind all the time.
"I don't know what you're talking about weirdo" I say
She gets up and holds both my hands and puts them on her face.
"I'm right here with you okay so if you're doubting anything quit that rubbish because you'll fry your brain" she says
"Ugh it's just frustrating because I mean you can just break up with him" I say
"You're right but then I'll become the bad guy and it won't really look good ya know and I know you out of all people can understand that"
She was right I understood what she meant because if Dua even got a bit of hate she would freak out and make it a whole big deal. She was just like that even though she seemed so laid back. People who look laid back have the most rollercoaster of emotions.
"You're right" i sigh in relief
"I know it's almost 3 am but let me make you dinner yeah?" she says
I just nod.
•flashback•
I was still shocked that the kiss happened it all felt so surreal. I can't believe I actually had feelings for a girl let alone someone I considered a best friend. What if it's the wrong thing to do because of our friendship, it is way too good for it to be ruined. While I was there thinking I hear my door knob turn.
"Hey look what I brought" Dua says while swing around a pizza
"I forget you have a key " I say
"it's an apology pizza from you know who" she says
"Oh" I say
I thought she broke up with him? She forgave him with a pizza? I knew it was way too good to be true. Did she forget about the kiss already?
"I'm having a hard time breaking up with him you know I'm not very um good with that stuff because Isaac" she says as she walk into the kitchen
So she didn't forget.
"It's cool Dua I was thinking that it's okay to forget what happened I love our friendship I don't want ruin it"
She just puts everything she's holding in her hands down and comes up to me.
"I couldn't sleep last night because you're all I could think about and to be honest it's been happening for almost 3 months now so yea we can try being friends still but I won't be able to hold myself back from doing anything" she says while staring at my lips
"Then what should we do? I doubt he'll break up with you at least not for a while"
"We keep doing this until then I mean no one will suspect a thing because people know we are best friends"
"Isn't that like you cheating?"
"I guess so but we don't have to think of it in that way what we have is way stronger anyways"
"Right"
•present•
"Come cook with me" dua screams from the kitchen
I walk into the kitchen and she's watch a cooking tutorial. She's always loved cooking I did too but she was way better at it.
"You don't even need my help" I say
She pauses her video and sticks her hand out. I just stand there all confused but I reach for it she pulls me and wraps it around her waist.
"I need emotional support" she says
"Emotional support animal vibes" I say
"Shut up" she laughs
"What" I say
"Here just hold my hands while I do everything so you can learn too" she says
"Why are you treating me like a rat now" I say
"Gosh just shut up" she laughs again
"Fine!" I say
She starts mixing things together truth is I already know how to do all this but I'm happy she thinks I'm clueless because it was moments like this where I do have faith in this relationship. Everything was peaceful but I hate that she was always gone the next morning, like if it was just a dream the time she was here.
"Done now lets eat " she says as she hands me my plate
"It's 3 am Dua" I say
"Yup so hurry so we can go to sleep" she says
"Don't you have to leave in like 2 hours?" I ask
"Yea but we can still take a small nap together" she says
"Right"
"But on Saturday I'll spend the entire day with you and Sunday too possibly just need to check my schedule ya know with everything going on"
It almost felt like if I was a child of divorced parents and she only had me on weekends or something but I was something way worse than that. I was the other one rather I liked it or not again because I didn't have the title of being anything to Dua at least not romantically. Truth is she wasn't proving anything she was just doing what she was doing before. But she said she loved me this time.
"Are you going to quit Rita's?" She says to get my attention
"I don't know should I?" I ask
"I mean that's up to you like you always say" she says
"So you want me to quit?" I ask
"I love you so I'll support you in anything you decide but yes I do want you to quit" she says
She said it again. I hope she can't see how happy it makes me inside because it's embarrassing in a way.
"I love you more so yes I'll quit" I say
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Old you - Dua Lipa
FanficYou're in love with the old her but is she still in there somewhere?
