Love Is Us

Chapter 13

"What are we doing here Brandon?", I asked.

"I want to make things right between us", he replied.

I stepped back but he pulled me closer. Despite being mad at him, I still loved him. He was my first real "boyfriend".

"I have a confession?", he whispered in my ear.

"What is it?"

"You are the only girl I want laying next to me", he said kissing my neck.

I melted. I was not used to this kind of attention I was getting. It seemed like every time I wanted to break free from his grasp, he would lure me right back in.

"I love you", I whispered back.

He slowly moved his hands down my back. And at that moment, I forgot everything that happened that lead up to this point.

"I love you too", he said holding me tight.

He twirled me around and we danced. We danced the night away. I couldn't picture myself with anyone else. I was falling for a guy that hurt me, but knew how to make up for his mistakes. It was magical.

"Tonight, it's just you and me", he said caressing my face.

The way his eyes glowed in the dark fascinated me. Was this all real?

"You have my heart", I said.

He pulled me in and we kissed. The passion that was there was unbelievable and undeniable satisfying. I didn't want it to end.

He slowly unbuttoned my blouse. I was feeling it. I unbuckled his pants and he picked me up as though I was a cotton ball. We continued kissing. As he ran his hands through my hair I was lost in his charm. God he felt so good. The hand movements were just right. It felt like Heaven, the way he touched me. He took off his shirt and started reaching for my pants. I couldn't fight it so I let him continue what he was doing.

"I want to make you mine", he said kissing below my neck.

We so deep into our passionate kiss that we were completely aware of what was around us.

"You feel so good", I said

Before we got any further, we heard a guy yelling from the other side of the balcony.

"Hey you guys are not suppose to be here after school hours!", he yelled running towards us.

We quickly picked up our clothes and hopped in Brandon's car and drove off.

"Oh my god!", I said looking back.

Brandon laughed.

I hit him.

"That's not funny! We literally just got caught by a security officer!", I yelled.

"Did we?, Brandon asked.

I guess he did kinda have a point. He didn't really catch us.

I sighed and leaned back.

"You're crazy?", I said.

"Would you love me if I wasn't?", he asked smiling.

He was right. No matter how hard I tried. I couldn't stay mad at him. I loved him too much and tonight proved just that.

He dropped my off at my dorm building.

"Goodnight Brandon."

He kissed me.

"Goodnight Megan", he replied.

I closed his door and walked to my dorm room. I was hoping Alicia was asleep. If she found out that I was out with Brandon at this time of night she would kill me.

I quietly walked upstairs. I got my keys out and carefully unlocked the door. I stepped over to my bed and put my stuff down. Then the light came on.

"Megan! What are you doing coming in at this time of night?", Alicia asked rubbing her eyes.

"Hey Alicia girl", I said reaching for a hug.

She pushed me back.

"Girl where have you been?"

"I was with Brandon", I admitted.

"What was you doing with him?", she asked.

"He wanted to fix things so I let him", I replied.

Alicia rolled her eyes.

"Whatever. I'm going back to bed", she said.

"Ok, goodnight."

She put her hand up.

Boy did I look stupid. Coming in at 11:30 at night from being with Brandon. I didn't blame her for being aggravated with me. I said I was mad at him and then I talked to him. And then I said I would stop talking to him and we have a passionate encounter tonight. What was wrong with me. Was I really allowing myself to fall that hard for a guy. A guy that hurt me by not telling me the truth from the beginning. Once again, this reminded me of Jayla. Despite what he has done to her, she still loves him. It's the same thing with me and Brandon. Despite him hurting me I still let him in. And if it weren't for the security guard I would have definitely lost my virginity.

I changed into my pajamas and laid down. I thought about my time at Weston Lake so far. My grades were good, I made the spirit team. I made a new best friend. And I have a boyfriend. And I used that word loosely because even after tonight I still don't know where me and Brandon stand. It was complicated. I wanted to be his girlfriend but too much was going on. And then I have to worry about Emma and her little threats. My life became overwhelming again and I didn't like it one bit. In fact I hated it. I hated the fact that I was so dumbfounded. And I hated that I still love Brandon. I still trust him and tonight I gave him my heart. But the question is. Will I ever get it back? Will I ever get the chance to be "boyfriend free"? I was longing for something that seemed so far away but I wanted peace. This new girl act isn't cutting it. If I don't make a decision fast and get things straight I'm going to be in a whirlpool of trouble. And the last thing I need is my parents to be disappointed in me. I mean I've came this far. Why would I give them a reason to lecture me and take me out of college. It doesn't make sense. And I don't think it ever will.