Jack Johnson's Little Sister 2 ➸ S.W (editing)

Chapter twenty

Songs;
Warning sign - Coldplay
Angels - The xx
Black beauty - Lana Del Rey

Ashley's POV:
The next was a chill day. We didn't really do much.

I was on my phone, and decided to dm some peeps back. Sam was sleeping and I honestly wasn't surprised.

Sometimes I wonder what if Sam and I broke up again?

I wouldn't be surprised to be honest.

Warning sign by Coldplay started playing and I got reminded of my parents. That was my mom's favorite song.. My parents danced to that all the time.

If my parents were still here would they want me with Sam? I know my mom would tell me just to be friends with him.. And my dad wouldn't want me to be near him.

I started crying when the chorus started playing; "yeah the truth is, that I miss you so, and I'm tired."

Those lyrics hit me right in the heart. I did miss them so much.. I miss talking to my mom everyday. I miss hugging my dad goodbye when he left to work.

@AshJayJohnson: please never ever take your family for granted. Please. 😔

I heard Sam wake up and I quickly wiped away any tears I had in my eyes. "Babe, I heard you crying what's wrong?" He asked me. "Nothing." I said sniffing. "No.. Something wrong, now talk to me."

"I miss them." I said my voice cracking mid sentence. "Miss who?" Sam said. "My-my parents." I said as I started sobbing.

It hurts. My heart it hurts. I can't take it anymore. If only they were here to tell me everything is okay, if only they were here to tell me that everything is going to be fine. If only.

They tell me life is beautiful and say that I don't have a clue. I love my life.. I just miss them.

He held me in his arms as I sobbed onto his shoulder. I wanna think that they're here and that they're just in Omaha.. But their 9 feet underground.

I wanna be happy, I wanna live life but knowing that I'm not always going to have the most important people in my life by my side hurts me physically and mentally.

Sam isn't always going to be there, Jack, Heidi and Gilinsky aren't always going to be there.

I can't count on anyone right now.

It's been 2 years..

And I still miss them every month, everyday, every minute, every second.

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Hey guys this is a filler. I would encourage you to listen to the songs above because that's what I was listening to while writing this :) CARTER DMED ME TWICE !! if you wanna follow my Twitter go ahead !

- Ash