Jack Johnson's Little Sister 2 ➸ S.W (editing)

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Sam's POV:
It's been 5 years since Ashley died, and I haven't found anybody better. I've tried so hard to find someone who will treat me and make me feel the same way that Ashley did. It feels like I've tried everything and I always end up with nothing.

Every time I hear her name is makes me feel bad about myself, I'd rather call Ashley, her or she.

Jordin is 7 years old now and I'm so proud of her already.

When I found out that she was 3 months pregnant when she died, my heart broke even more.. Which I didn't know was possible.

but today, today is an official 5 years since she passed away with my son. Everybody feels bad for me, and I blame everything on me because if I would've gone to pick her up none of this shit would've happened. She wouldn't be gone and she would be right here with me in my arms holding our daughter and son.

Fuck, I didn't want it to be like this. Hell, I wish it was me. I wish that she wouldn't have gone through all the pain she did. I wish she was happy. I wish she was still alive.

I've had countless nightmares of her accident and how she experienced it.

I feel like an idiot, sitting right in the middle of the bed crying hysterically.

"Daddy, uncle Gilinsky is calling!" She says loud enough for me to hear her. "I'm coming!" I say while wiping my tears.

I don't want my daughter to see me like this.. Ever.

I clear my throat and pick up the house phone. "Hello?"

"Hey Wilk. How's it going?"

"Could be better. What about you Gilinsky?"

"Good. Can Stephanie and I come over? You know while Emily is at work with Shawn?"

"Yeah-yeah of course. In how much time are you going to be here?"

"Uhm. I would say 25 minutes?"

"Ok see you soon." I say as I hang up the phone.

Jack had a family of 4. His daughter Stephanie that's 8 and his son Shawn that is 4. He married Emily Glazer after Ashley & I got married.

I heard the doorbell go off and that's my cue to go get the door.

I open the door to find Gilinsky and Stephanie. 

"Hi uncle Sammy!" Stephanie greets me. "Hi baby, how have you been?" I say kneeing down so I was her height. "Good. I wanna see Jordin"

"She's in her room," I say as I move out of the way to let them in. I shut the door behind me and lock it.

Me and Jack sit on the couch, and the first thing to leave his mouth is "I'm sorry."

"For what?" I asked

"for Ashley, and your unborn son. I know today is 5 years since it all happened. That's why I wanted to come over to give you this." He said hanging me a small leather journal with 'Ashley' engraved in the front.

"What's this?" I asked holding the small journal.

"I was looking through a box that Johnson found in Ashley's car that night and I found this. I asked Johnson about it, and turns out she's had this since she was 7 years old. She just never mentioned it. I didn't want to read it so, I came her to give it to you. After all, she is still your wife."