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betrayal pt 4

previously on betrayal...
a silvery necklace on a table caught newt's eye. there was a letter next to it, with his name on it...

opening the letter, newt sat down on a log and started reading;

dear newt,
this is probably the last time you'd ever hear from me. reading this means that you've arrived at the safe haven. that's good. it'll be your home from now on. it's far from the virus, so it's safe, which means you're safe. aside from getting the cure, this place is another project i was working on. i wanted to make sure that you guys had a good place to go to after everything happened. i know it still doesn't make up for betraying you guys, but i really only ever wanted what was best for you. i wasn't thinking straight when i thought that wckd was the right way to go and that i could make a difference. during the tests, i'd get so in my own head that i forget that it's you guys in the trials. after i snap out of it, i feel beyond guilty, even more every day. it hurt knowing that i was putting you guys through so much worse than you had ever. i'm incredibly sorry, newt. you have no idea how much i want to go back in time and change everything i've done to you and the others. what i did was wrong and stupid and i should've done it some other way. i've lost all of your trust and i deserve that. truth is, i was scared of losing you too. i started getting my memories back while we were getting out of the maze, and i remembered that you weren't immune. i wanted to make sure you'd be safe. when you turned into a crank i was scared, i couldn't bear the thought of actually losing you. so i worked even harder on getting you that cure. i glad it worked, since you're reading this. but that's not an excuse for what i've done. you have every right to hate me and resent me. but i do want you to know that i have always loved you newt. that never changed. from the moment i came up in the box and you taking care of me, i knew that i would stand with you between the heavens and the earth. i love you. i have loved you endlessly. i cannot breathe when you are not near. my heart calls your name. (queen charlotte reference? yes.) we did have something, i just wished i hadn't been the cause of it being cut short. there are still so many things that i want to say to you, but i can't think of how to write it on this letter. i want you to keep the necklace. maybe it could be a way for you to remember me, the scared little greenie who couldn't even remember his own name. take care of everyone, just like you always have. im beyond sorry for everything newt, i hope you have a better life in the safe haven. please, live a good life. you deserve to be happy. more than anything and anyone else in the world, i love you so, so much. goodbye newt.

- tommy.

a/n: my first multiple part story !! how'd you guys like it?