𝑺𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑺 𝑳𝑰𝑳 𝑷𝑬𝑬𝑷

★ 𝘛𝘞𝘌𝘕𝘛𝘠-𝘚𝘌𝘝𝘌𝘕 ★

☹︎𝙑𝙀𝙉𝙐𝙎 ☹︎

i tried my hardest to keep the temptations away from me. i was so paranoid right now. i need outta here right now. i cant though, i have to graduate. i need to for my family.

"venus." the voice scared me as i looked up to see my teacher standing in front of me.

"yes?" i asked, he looked around at everyone then back at me.

"are you doing okay?" why the sudden concern? my teachers never cared about me so why start now.

"i dont know." i replied in all honesty i dont. im on the edge and i feel as if im slipping away from whats real and not.

"do you need to be excused, venus? if you need to you may at any time, im sorry to hear about everything i wish you nothing but the best." he patted my desk before giving me a sad look and going to his desk.

im not a fucking pity party. i stared at the worksheet on my desk. i figured id do it but all the scenarios are playing through my mind. i jus wanna go home.

the bell rang and i was off to find ian for lunch. as i walked with my head down and hood on i spotted him at our usual table, i was then cut off by jax. i stopped in my tracks, anger and betrayal filled my heart.

"venus, please talk to me." he said with sorrow in his voice. i was so mad so hurt i wanted to fight.

"no." i said i tried to walk away but he stopped me.

"venus, please. i know you probably feel like i abandoned you. im sorry." that only angered me.

"its fine, jax." he looked confused.

"then tell me whats up. you know me. i know you." i scoffed, i glared at him.

"that doesnt make up for anything, jax. you left me." i tried to be calm, i didnt want a scene.

"then what? i'm sorry, i thought you could handle it. youre my party girl, venus." that was it.

"thats all i am to you? just a party girl? im a fucking person, jax. i have feelings, i have thoughts!" he took a small step back.

"i didnt mean it like that." thats when i started laughing.

"no, thats all ill ever be to you people." he gave me a confused look.

"you people? im your friend, venus. im the only person who's ever stuck by you." i scoffed again.

"my friend? you left me to fucking die, jax!" i yelled causing people to look at me. "you left me on the goddamn street to die by my fucking self. while a stupid bitch recorded me. do you know how that feels?" i started walking towards him while he backed up.

"do you know whats it like to trust one person and they leave you for dead and people recording you in a vulnerable time? making fun of you. posting you like youre a fucking animal! shits not cool, my nigga its not." he looked taken back.

"im sorry, venus. i am. i shouldn't have left you." i didnt wanna hear anything else so i walked away. i sat down while ian looked at me.