𝑺𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑺 𝑳𝑰𝑳 𝑷𝑬𝑬𝑷

★𝑆𝐼𝑋★︎

☹︎𝙑𝙀𝙉𝙐𝙎☹︎︎

when jax and i got to the party everyone was looking at me with a smile. i was kinda used to the fake people. they pulled me into the dancing crowd and gave me drinks. i chugged them all down smiling.

"party venus is my favorite venus." jax said pulling me closer. in his hand was a couple pills. he grinned at me while i took a few from his hand and gulped them. i was ready to numb the pain again.

"i'm tryna get real fucked up tonight, jax." he smiled and gulped his pills.

"let the fun begin." i joined people on the couch as drinks and blunts were passed. then i felt the pills kick in and i became happy. thoughts of brian, peep, and jake left my mind. there was a crowd surrounding me.

"hey, venus, wanna come with me?" she asked, and honestly she was hot so i was down for whatever she wanted.

"of course." she took my hand and led me up stairs. we went into an empty room, she closed the door.

"can i ask you something?" she asked sitting down on the bed.

"ask away, princess." i replied, i was so high i'm surprised i didnt float outta the roof.

"are you and peep together?" i shook my head.

"nah, we're friends." she grinned and pulled me down on her. although i been developing some feelings for him. i dont remember anything after that, i woke up in a lonely bed. i sighed and slipped on my shoes before walking out of the quiet house.

i looked up at where the street signs said, i started walking to my house. when i got into my room i took a shower. my phone had messages and missed calls from people. but one really caught my eye.

𝙋𝙀𝙀𝙋𝙀𝙍𝙎💔
glad to kno u really like ur parties :/

what was that suppose to mean? did peep come to the party with me?

𝙑𝙀𝙉𝙐𝙎🌙🖤
whats that mean.

no answer. i groaned and walked into school everyone was looking at me, i wasnt in the mood. allison walked by winking at me, she had hickeys all over her neck. why the fuck was she winking at me?

i sat in class jake turned around he looked so sad, he then turned away with the shake of his head. why is everyone acting different today.

𝙋𝙀𝙀𝙋𝙀𝙍𝙎💔
come over when ur sober

i know this fool didnt just. since when was he ever sober. i ignored him doing my work, when the bell rang jax came up to me.

"who are those hickeys from?" he grinned, did he give me them? i shrugged.

"ion know, bruh, but like this bitch allison winked at me for some reason." he started laughing like a jackass. why the fuck are you laughing.

"i bet." what was that suppose to me? can somebody not fucking confuse me today. i ignored everyone and worked on my shit.

"hey, jax, i need more xans." he grinned.

"i gotchu." while i walked to my next class, allison grabbed my hand and led me to the bathroom. seriously what the fuck is going on with her.

"venus, baby. how are you?" did she just?

"fan-fucking-tastic, why you grabbing on me and shit." she just grinned.

"i had fun at the party." she said leaning closer, i'll punch your stupid ass back up.

"bitch the fuck you talking about?" i asked, i was so confused to the point i was mad.

"me and you.." i furrowed my eyebrows at her waiting for her to spit the shit out. "you don't remember?"

"if i remembered you think i'd waste my time asking you?" she sighed.

"we fucked, ve. and honestly it was so damn good." first of all i already know my tongue game magic ask my other bitches, second d i s g u s t i n g venus what the fuck are you doing anymore.

"lemme guess i gave you those hickeys," she smiled like a big ass child, i sighed. "jesus fuck. alright, listen, that shit happened cause i was drunk." she nodded.

"but we can do it again right?" i gave her that glare like bitch you serious right now. jake chose you over me and you think ima fuck you while im sober? ion think so hoe. i grabbed my shit and walked out.

maybe thats why peep's upset with me. someone mustve taken a video or something. man i told him i didnt wanna hurt him. goddamn. i have to talk to him or it'll kill me if i dont.

by the end of the day i was debating on what to say to him. if that was even his problem with me. what if it was something else? god peep what are you doing to me. i found myself in the parking lot and began walking. jake grabbed my arm.

"was it nice, venus?" he asked a little angry.

"ion know what the fuck youre on about but let go of me before i knock your lop sided head ass out." he groaned.

"you fucked allison didnt you." i nodded.

"sure did." i grinned cause i knew he was mad.

"why? i fucking love you and you play games." hold up. back track. i play games?

"now wait one fucking second. youre the one who played games with me. you chose that bitch over me and now you say you love me?" he grabbed my hands.

"i do love you, ve." i slapped his hands away.

"miss me with that. and by the way her pussy tasted like stale sprinkles so ion know why you chose her." i started walking away, man everybody really getting on my nerves. i walked all the way back to my house and upstairs into my room.

i really wish i had my mom right now. she would have made things better. i sighed and laid on my bed. many things would have been different if she was here. i grabbed my phone and walked out the door.

i'm sober so i'm coming over. i walked for minutes and when i got there i knocked on the door. tracy opened it and greeted me with a hug.

"heyy, venus." he said with a smile.

"hey, trace." i replied.

"whatcha doing here?" he asked.

"i wanted to talk to peep." i spoke he nodded then pointed in his room. i smiled and began walking.

"i wouldnt, ve." bexey said and i kept walking. when i opened the door peep was sat on the bed with a girl on his lap. she was kissing all over his neck while he did the same. they stopped and looked at me.

"now i wish i wasnt sober." i said before turning away.

"i tried to warn you, ve." bexey said and i regret not listening. guess thats what happens when you start to catch feelings for a rapper. this is what i get. thats what i deserve.

𝙄𝙈𝘼 𝙎𝙏𝘼𝙍𝙏 𝘼𝘿𝘿𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙈𝙊𝙍𝙀 𝘽𝙄𝙎𝙀𝙓𝙐𝘼𝙇 𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙍𝘼𝘾𝙏𝙀𝙍𝙎 𝙄𝙉 𝙈𝙔 𝙎𝙏𝙊𝙍𝙄𝙀𝙎