𝑺𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑺 𝑳𝑰𝑳 𝑷𝑬𝑬𝑷

★︎ 𝑇𝑊𝐸𝑁𝑇𝑌 - 𝑇𝐻𝑅𝐸𝐸 ★︎

☹︎𝗩𝗘𝗡𝗨𝗦☹︎

gus laid in bed with me, he didnt wanna leave mine nor ian's side. ian slept in my room because i guess he felt safe with me. i didnt mind the company at all, it saved me from whatever harmful thing i could do.

gus was already passed out. it was so cute. but every now and then he'd wake up. i wrapped myself up in his arms and prepared myself for whatever was gonna happen in school tomorrow. i jus have little bit of time before im out.

i moved more waking gus up accidentally. he looked at me and around the room to see if ian was okay. he rubbed his eyes and looked at me feeling around to feel my heart beat.

"baby, im okay. go back to sleep." he wrapped his arm around me pulling me closer into him. he kissed my cheek in short time falling back asleep. i fell asleep with him hearing my alarm wake both ian and i up.

ian went into his room while i went and took a shower. i sighed heavily letting the water hit me. i closed my eyes wincing at the memory of gus putting me into the shower to recover. i opened my eyes backing out the shower water.

i stared at it heavily my breathing hitching. i felt like i was having a panic attack. i started looking around me while the walls felt like they were caving in.

"gus?" i called out, sliding down the shower walls into the floors. i heard him stumble and run into the bathroom. he ripped the shower curtains back.

"venus? hey you gotta breathe." i reached out for his hand trying to calm down. the racing thoughts of jax leaving me out in the street overwhelmed me. gus put his hand on my face looking me in the eyes.

"its okay, ve, im here. im here with you," the tears were flowing viciously just the thought of dying alone makes me nervous. "you gotta breathe, honey, breathe." i held onto his wrists trying my best. when it felt like i could breathe regularly i hugged him.

"this is bullshit. im tired of doing this." here i was naked in the shower falling apart with the only boy in the world who would love me. he slid my wet hair back and kissed my cheek.

"its okay, i gotchu."

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"call me if you need anything, okay?" gus said dropping me off at school, i nodded he placed a kiss on my head. "i love you, angel."

"i love you too, goth sinner." i said chuckling causing him to smile. he watched me walk in the school so i put my headphones in listening to some of his songs on my way to class. i hated being here. the fakest place in the world.

teachers pretend theyre high mighty for a day, people back stab you and do the grimiest shit. a place full of sexist people, they dont wanna admit it but its true. allison passed me and gave me a hug. i was confused.

"im so happy youre alive." i looked at her funny.

"what?" she looked at me funny.

"venus, are you okay?" i nodded and pushed past her. did everybody fucking know? it felt like everybody was watching me. my anxiety was testing me. i wanted so badly to snap. i tried to avoid everybody's stares at me.

i saw jax coming my way, i wanted to scream. i instantly turned into the girl's bathroom catching glares from snotty rich whores. they'd never be great compared to me, i glared back causing them to leave.