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𝙥𝙨𝙖 𝙞𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙨 𝙩𝙤𝙤 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙚 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞 𝙢𝙚𝙖𝙣 𝘼𝙉𝙔 𝙤𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙥 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙤𝙧 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙠 𝙩𝙤 𝙢𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙢𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙖𝙜𝙚𝙨 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙤𝙥𝙚𝙣 𝙔𝙊𝙐. 𝘼𝙍𝙀. 𝙉𝙊𝙏. 𝘼𝙇𝙊𝙉𝙀 ♡︎

i dont know what happened. everything was spinning, my heart was racing so fast. i never felt this way i was so scared. i dont know where i was, they left me. they left me alone. im so scared. my body was shaking and my vision blurred from the tears.

i tried to walk to gus. i was trying so hard but i wasnt gonna make it. i shakily pulled out my phone to call him. i started to cry again while he picked up.

"baby." he said he sounded relieved.

"gus. please help me. im so scared." i started to sob, i fell due to my legs going numb.

"baby, whats wrong?" he asked so concerned.

"i dont wanna die alone. please come get me. i dont wanna be alone." my vision was flickering.

"where are you!" he shouted scared, i looked around trying to find a street sign.

"jackson way. i dont wanna die alone, gus. they left me." the streets were lonely. i felt cold. my body going numb.

"dont wo-" my phone had shut off, no please. i sat there on the cold concrete sobbing while i still could. my vision was fading out while i panicked to breathe. i tried to fight it. i dont wanna die alone. i dont wanna die alone.

i heard a faint voice scream my name. i felt my body being picked up. but i couldnt hear well. everything was suddenly moving fast while i fought my eyes to close. i felt a hand in mine. im not alone. im not gonna die alone.

𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑘 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑔𝑢𝑠. 𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.
♥︎

everything stopped while my vision finally left me. i felt free. i didnt hurt anymore. it was all gone. i heard my name being called from a voice i havent heard in forever.

"mama?" it was dark and i struggled to see.

"venus, baby." she was standing in front of me, holding my hand and rubbing my face.

"mama.." i hugged her so tightly, feeling the tears fall again. "im so sorry, mama."

𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑖 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑖𝑡 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒𝑛?

"dont worry, my angel, its okay." everything felt okay with her here.

"i miss you." i whispered.

"i know, sweetheart," she pushed my hair back. "but i cannot let you stay. you have to keep going, baby. i know you feel weak right now but you need to face it, venus, okay?" i stood there staring at her.