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𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗚𝗚𝗘𝗥 𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗙𝗢𝗥 𝗔𝗡𝗬𝗕𝗢𝗗𝗬 𝗪𝗛𝗢 𝗛𝗔𝗦 𝗢𝗥 𝗜𝗦 𝗦𝗧𝗥𝗨𝗚𝗚𝗟𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗪𝗜𝗧𝗛 𝗣𝗛𝗬𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗔𝗟 𝗔𝗕𝗨𝗦𝗘, 𝗧𝗢𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗗𝗦 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗠𝗜𝗗𝗗𝗟𝗘 𝗢𝗙 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗥𝗬 𝗦𝗞𝗜𝗣 𝗜𝗙 𝗬𝗢𝗨 𝗡𝗘𝗘𝗗 𝗧𝗢 𝗔𝗡𝗗 𝗜𝗙 𝗔𝗡𝗬𝗕𝗢𝗗𝗬 𝗚𝗘𝗧𝗦 𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗚𝗚𝗘𝗥𝗘𝗗 𝗜𝗠 𝗛𝗘𝗥𝗘 𝗧𝗢 𝗧𝗔𝗟𝗞- 𝗞𝗜 🖤

i was officially too afraid to be by myself. i was too scared to go home and own up to what i did. too afraid of the outcome of my family. i told them id be better and im not.

im the same weakling i was when it first happened. how was i suppose to tell my family i died and came back to life? how am i suppose to tell the only people who wanna see me happy that they almost lost me?

i was so scared to go home. i didnt wanna go back. i wanted to sleep forever and hope it go away. maybe it would just leave me like everything else.

"baby?" i was shaken out of my thoughts. gus and i were in bed suppose to be asleep but i couldnt. he felt too scared to sleep without me.

"yes?" i called, he felt around for me until he felt my hand.

"are you okay?" he asked.

"im fine, gus dont worry." i felt his whole body shift and work his way onto mine.

"are you sure?" i lightly smiled.

"yes." he placed a gentle kiss on my cheek. he felt around for my hand intertwining them. he actually calmed me down, i started to go to sleep. i woke up to my phone ringing, brian was calling me. i unraveled myself from gus to answer it.

"hey, dad." i said, he breathed hard.

"thank god. are you okay? where are you?" he sounded like he was panicking.

"im okay, dad. im with gus," i heard crying in the background. "is everything okay? do i need to come home?"

"no, your brother was just worried, he thought he saw a video of some girl drunk or something passed out and he thought it was you." jax.

"tell him im okay, get him to stop crying. ill be home soon." i could tell he was relieved now.

"i will ve, i love you." i slightly smiled.

"i love you too, dad." i hung up the phone, i rolled over to gus looking at me with a smile.

"hi, baby." he said kissing me on my head causing me to smile widely.

"good morning." i kissed his cheek, he wrapped me up into him laying his head on my shoulder.

"did you sleep okay?" he asked, i nodded, having my arms wrapped around him.

"yes. everythings better with you around." i could tell he was smiling, he rolled on top of me putting my legs around his waist.

"i feel the same way with you." i had my hands on his face bringing him down to kiss me. i pulled him down on me to feel his body warmth. just to be hugged felt good. i felt a lil less numb with him here.