FOURTH'S POV>>
Days goes on and on, and a years have passed, but this overwhelming feelings of sadness haven't passed yet, but i learned to cope with it now
I'm starting to learn how to live without him, it's funny thinking on how it took me 3 years to learn how to live my life without him in my life, when in fact we are not in a relationship, we are knowing each other around 4 years, we met each other at Thailand School Star contest, we were friends from then on along with Ford and Satang
I am close to him more than anyone else, and I'm comfortable with him, maybe because we were same age, we share each other almost everything, our hobby, favourite food, movies we like, our taste in music, we have many things in common, and many difference at the same time, but that doesn't an issue between us, that's what I thought
I think we have been close enough to introduce others to our family, even before we start our movie shooting, my parents and my sister love Gemini, he has bubbly personality, he can talk to everyone and he makes friends easily, he gives off his positive energy to everyone around him, he loves to play around our colleagues at the company, we will not be much wrong if we say that he became friends with everyone in the company
He got so many friends in the company and uni, but I think I'm his best of friends before that thing happens, maybe I'm wrong since he didn't tell me anything about him leaving
I understand he had secrets he didn't tell me, because I have one too, but isn't it different, he leave everything behind, that's include everyone, are we not worthy enough to at least say a goodbye, its hurt that he leave it without telling me, but what's hurt more is that I can't even contact him and he didn't try to contact me within those 3 years that has passed
"Fourth... Fourth" P'Yui is shaking my shoulder while looking at me with concern, oh.. I'm lost in my thoughts again.
"Are you okay?" P'Yui asked me
"I'm ok Phi, I'm just too engrossed with my thoughts" I replied and flash her a smile
"Fourth, you don't have to act strong in front of me, I know you're still missing him, especially on days like this, I understand you, I miss him too, and I'll not tell you to stop thinking about him, but I want you to focus more on yourself first, you are my strong little boy, you can move on with memories and became a better person so that your parents and Gem.. Will be proud of you" She replied
"Phi, you also believe that Gem will comeback again right? " I look her with a hopeful eyes
"Yes Fourth, I believe that one day he'll return to Bangkok and to us, and when that time comes, he'll be proud of you for your success just like me and your family"
I'm glad that P'Yui talk to me and support me, if not for her I don't know what I'll do, on the time when Gem leave, I don't know how to react, I'm sad, hurt and felt betrayed, I know I said that I learned how to cope with this feeling but no, I still can't cope well, but I'm much better now
"Thanks Phi, for always there for me, and I'm glad that you still don't give up about Gemini, I'm happy that I have someone to talk to" This is the reason I love P'Yui, she's always there for me, but she never force me on anything that I didn't like to do or say
"Ok.. Then get ready ok, you have 20 mins before the show starts" P'Yui said and pat my shoulder, for her encouragement
"Noted.. Phi" I replied with a small smile and salute jokingly, my mood became better than before
I login to my ig account and search for one specific account, when it was display on the screen, I click and there "lost_star", plays his videos, I love his soothing voice, and the song he chooses were all beautiful, I always listen to his cover when I'm down or nervous
Teardrops on my guitar
-Taylor Swift
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
But I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky 'cause
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe get some sleep tonight
'Cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
I don't know why, but it makes me relax listening to him singing, his voice soothe me, I wish I know who he is, so I'll be able to listen him singing in live, but he never show his face in his video, other people are also curious of his abouts, but maybe no one knows who he is
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Hello.... Good morning, good afternoon and good night
Here's a new boring chapter
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And here, I want to take your opinion, theres two plot in my mind
What so you want,
A happy ending
Or
Sad ending
If you still read, please vote, I'll take a majority, even if there's only 1 comment, I'll take that comment as a decision
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It's 2:10 a.m and I have exam today but here I am typing some nonsense😂😂
Ok... I'm going.. ٩(ര̀ᴗര́)ᵇʸᵉ
