Pain of love

9

I woke up in agony I didn't dare sit up I just lay there and stared the ceiling. My chest ached as I breathed and I let out a small groan. My face felt swollen and I could only breath out my mouth. He'd really gone for it this time.

A small tear fell down my cheek the man I'd watched soften around me was once again so cruel his eyes had looked at me with complete disgust last night and it had hurt me. The worst part of it was I'd chosen to be here. I had the opportunity to leave and I'd chosen this life. I was ashamed of myself I'd gone down there last night hoping to make Gustav realise he still loved angel, instead I'd made it all worse. I slowly turned my head angel was lying next to me but as I turned my head the other way I noticed Roma wasn't there.

This filled me with dread but I was too sore to do anything about it. Angel must have seen me looking around and got up.

"Thank god you're awake I was staring to worry you'd never wake up" I tried to smile but it hurt I knew If I looked in a mirror right now I'd hardly recognise myself.

"Why did you do that Florence" angel whispered sadly stroking my hair

"I wanted to make it right again" I whispered my voice croaky and every movement of my mouth caused me pain.

"Shh don't speak I know it hurts"

I grabbed her wrist and pointed to Romas bed, she rolled her eyes.

"She's fine" she said but I could tell she was annoyed

Angel helped me to sit up, every part of my torso ached she helped me up and I made my way to the mirror. I let out a tiny wail.

My entire face was bruised my eyes my cheek my jaw. My one eye was swollen shut and a deep cut ran along my cheek bone. As I lifted my top another small groan escaped my lips I could barley see any normal coloured skin it was all deep shades of blue and purple the deepest parts almost looked black.

Angel looked at me sadly and a few more tears escaped my eyes in that moment I wished he'd just killed me a part of me wondered if he almost had I resented Gustav for pulling him off he should have just let him put me out of my misery.

"Do you think you can make it downstairs" she asked

I nodded

"Are they out" I whispered

"Yeah the girls are here but I don't care we need to sort you out"

I nodded again and followed her out the room and down the stairs. The girls were all sat around a table and to my shock Roma was sat with them they all looked up as we came down the stairs. Roma stared at me with wide eyes. They all stood up to leave and to my horror Roma moved with them I tried to glare at Maria this was all her fucking fault but she couldn't tell she just stared me in shock. They all did.

I went to grab Romas arm but she dodged away from it and followed the others up the stairs.

"Don't bother with her" angel said glaring at Roma

I wanted to know what was happening but the stiffness in my jaw stopped me from saying anything.

I sat down on the sofa and angel began fussing around me she handed me some ice. The sensation was cooling but did nothing to ease my pain. She disappeared into the office and reappeared carrying a small bottle of pills.

"Here" she said hading me two

I frowned at them

"They're the pain meds Tom was given when he got out of hospital"

I nodded and swallowed them dry desperate for some relief from this agony. We sat in silence for 10 or so minutes as Roma made soup and the pain killers slowly began to work their magic. When I finally felt my jaw wasn't going to break whenever I moved it I cleared my throat.