Pain of love

20

The next morning I woke to an empty bed, this made my stomach turn, as I became more aware of my surroundings I could hear shouting from outside the room. In a dazed panic I got out of bed and stumbled to the door my eyes still adjusting to the light.

Outside Roma was hanging around outside the door anxiously biting her nails.

"Is he not back" I asked

She shook her head, her eyes were red and puffy I'd guessed she'd been crying all night. As we were talking the office door swung open tom stormed out followed by Gustav and georg. As they passed I grabbed Gustavs arm.

"What's happening" I whispered

"A complete fucking shit show georg and I will go out and look again Tom can't come it can't look like we're panicking when we find him we'll let him know and he can come take care of it"

I nodded roma let out a small groan I knew she just wanted bill back, god why were these men so stupid always getting themselves into messes.

I guided Roma by her arm into the kitchen and gestured for her to sit on the sofa. I began to make her breakfast and plated up food for the others as well. Georg and Gustav sat and ate at the kitchen counter. I handed Roma her plate and trailed off to find Tom. I found him in our room staring out the window.

"I made you food" I said

"I'm not hungry"

I sighed and placed the plate onto the nightstand

I went over to him and laid my hand on his back.

"He'll be okay I just know it" I said

"I don't want to talk about it" he said

"I just wish there was something I could do Tom"

He turned around and hugged me

"Just be here that's all I need" he said

I nodded

Once he pulled away I picked the plate back up and handed it to him again.

"Please eat" I insisted

"Fine"

He picked at the toast and eggs but it was better than nothing. As I watched him eat I was suddenly overcome with nausea, I hurried to the bathroom. I closed the door and was sick.

Tom followed me in I tried to shoo him away but he wouldn't go, I sat for a while by the toilet feeling sick and uneasy.

"Must be something I've eaten" I said wiping my mouth the sickness slowly fading away again.

I stood and brushed my teeth trying to think what it was I ate. I shrugged it off.

The day dragged by Roma stayed in her room I sat on the sofa, Tom would occasionally join me in attempts to relax but he wasn't able to stay still for longer than 10 minutes he kept pacing to the office. I kept getting random bursts of sickness for the rest of the morning but by the afternoon it had stopped.

As afternoon turned into evening the horrible uneasy feeling I'd had in my stomach for the past few days grew bigger and bigger. I knew I was just stressed about Tom but I couldn't put my mind at ease.

Eventually Gustav and Georg arrived back they looked upset and nervous, as they came through the doors Roma appeared suddenly into the room looking at them both expectantly. They shook their heads and looked at the floor. Tom stood up and stormed into the office they both followed him. I could hear him punching the walls. I stood up and took Roma in my arms holding her close to me.

"It's going to be okay I promise they'll find him"

She began to sob and I stroked her hair leading her by her arm to the sofa where I sat and she lay with her head in my lap sobbing as I stroked her hair.

I wished I could take her pain away. I heard the office door slam and as they all stormed through the living room and out the front door I was suddenly very worried her pain might also become my own.