Pain of love

16

The next day I woke up and Tom wasn't there as I stuck my head out the door I could hear raised voices coming from the office. I sighed and rolled my eyes what happened last night was bound to cause problems.

Today I was finally allowed to remove my bandages I took them off slowly and got into the shower so desperate to clean myself properly. The water stung a little as it ran over my shoulders but I didn't care it felt like finally being able to scrub away some of what had happened. I stared down at my stomach the words were still angry and red I regretted not taking better care of them if I had they'd be tiny scabs by now barley visible.

I got out the shower and looked at myself in the mirror I spun around and looked at my shoulders the stitches were almost invisible now and the scars were raised. I looked like an angel that had lost it's wings this made me tear up I doubted I would ever be able to hear or think the word angel without it ripping a hole in my heart.

I dressed and headed into the kitchen Roma was sat eating cereal.

"They've been in there all fucking morning I'm so bored" she complained

"About last night?" I asked

"I guess so I get why it takes so long to decide what to do" she groaned

"How's Gustav" I asked changing the subject

"Angry he buried her again this morning himself"

"What where" I asked panicked I'd missed my last chance to see her

"Don't stress under a willow tree by the pond he did it when it was dark so no one will know she's there except us"

I nodded this was good the idea of anyone desecrating her again was too much to bare and I'm sure it was to Gustav too.

Roma and I lounged around I went outside to smoke and then made coffee for us both.

"Do you think we'd be allowed out just us?" I asked

Roma looked puzzled by this

"I actually don't know I've never asked"

Almost as if they'd heard us the office door opened and they all poured out making their way towards the kitchen. Tom looked angry but he smiled as he saw me coming over and kissing my cheek.

"Bill" Roma asked in a hesitant tone

"This sounds like it's going to be a question I won't like"

"Oh no Florence and I wondered if maybe we could go somewhere just us?" She said looking up at him from where she sat.

"No not now not when things are like this it isn't safe" Tom snapped as if she should have known better.

"I could take them trail behind make sure everything is okay?" Bill suggested

Tom sighed and shrugged

"Works for us" I smiled at bill

Tom gave me a glare and went back to his room, while Roma was getting ready I went to toms room knocked and stuck my head round the door.

"Don't knock Florence it's your room too" he sighed

"Sorry I just wanted to see if we were okay you seem angry" I whispered kneeling on the bed next to where he was sat

"I don't like the idea of you going out when things are like this it makes me stressed" he sighed

"Come with us and bill then if it makes you feel better" I smiled at him

"I don't want to intrude upon your day you want time alone"

"Then just let us walk ahead I only want to go to the mall"