love& hate in the bull pin

7

Two weeks later

Max's POV

I have been home for two weeks now and I probably have slept three whole days without waking up to a cold sweat. Right now it was four in the morning so I went and sat down on the couch in my oodie, head phones on listening to music while watching the peaceful street lights.

A few hours later

I was walking up the stairs to the bullpin to see my dad in his office so I walked in and put a bag of food on his desk "let me guess you got a little amount of sleep last night" I looked at him like he hit the nail on the head "I'm sorry that this is happening to you son" I looked up at the celling "everytime I close my eyes I go back to that day I remember telling that lady everything is going to be fine and I remember running to go get stuff to help them" I place my hand over the main area I got shot "I still remember getting shot and looking at the shotter seeing that tattoo on their neck" dad got out a pen and paper "what did the tattoo look like" I try to recall the image "it was a broken heart being held together by stitches and a bandaid" he wrote all that down "good good that's more that will help us a lot with everything everyone else has said" I get up to see the team at their desks I walk out of the office and all eyes were on me so I walked into the break room to be soon joined by Jay the second he closed the door I was right to him hiding my face in his neck. Everytime I'm with Jay I feel safe and loved his warmth was nice "Max hey I got you I got you" I didn't want to speak or let go "I'm staying over tonight to make sure you get some sleep" before I could speak he spoke "and before you say you're alright I know your not I can tell you are sleep deprived so please let me help" I kissed him on the lips when we pulled away I rested my head on his shoulder "do you think you could  come over now and just help me with some day to day things like grocery shopping I haven't been able to go back into a store since" I started to cry "I'll go ask Hank"

Jay's POV

I left the break room and went straight to Hank's office and closed the door "Halstead what do you need" I leaned on one of the seats "I need to take some time off" he nodded his head "it's about Max isn't it" I nodded my head "take as much time you need" I thanked him and walked out and to my desk to grab my things Erin kept asking what's going on I just kept ignoring her when Max came out I walked him down thankfully no one else knows about me and Max accept Hank.

A few hours later

I had driven every where Max need to go and helped him walk around the shops he was so scared but when we got back to Max's house I had never been in sure I have seen the outside when I got his bag and guitar out of his car. When I got in it was a complete mess in the lounge he had blankets and pillows down here while Max put the food away I went up to his bed room to see that he had metal's from being in the army and navy "Jay I didn't want you to see theses" Max started to put them in a Locked cabinet "Max I didn't know you served" he looked down "I don't talk about it just like you don't talk about it I mean I lost good friends who were and still are family." Max wiped a tear that had escaped "every year I get a letter from the familys asking if I'm coming to the Reunion that is in a week. I got the letter this morning before coming in" Max walked out of his bedroom and I followed him down to the dining room where he had made some lunch up for both of us. When I was half way through mine I looked over at Max to see him still playing with his food "so why didn't you want me to see the metal's" he looked up at me "I don't like people looking at them not even my farther the only two people who have seen them are dead and you" I know he is meaning Alvin and Justin I didn't want to push my luck so I got up and picked up Max and carried him to his bed room. I stripped right down into my boxers and Max had already done that we both jumped into bed Max caddled right up into my side and I put him in to a tight hold not wanting to let go and that so Max know I would be here I watched him fall asleep peacefully in my arms knowing this might be the first time in ages that he might actually get a good rest I slowly let myself fall asleep