Losing my Religion (nyo Fruk)

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After finishing the conversation, I met Carmen and Julia downstairs. They were waiting in the lounge, playing cards. "So glad you came here! Today we are actually passing out flyers for our mass on Sunday. If you help us, we can get this show on the road quicker!" Julia cheered. They both wore long skirts, with ruffled shirts. They looked so cute. I mostly wore dresses, more than I did long skirts. I always felt that skirts made me look too religious.

Not that I didn't want to be perceived that way...I just wanted people to feel welcome. Religious people get a rough view at times.

"Yes! I'm in! Where are we passing out flyers?"

"Near the plaza! Come on! We will show you there!" Carmen cheered. She grabbed my hand, excitedly, pulling me along. She seemed nice; they both did. I just felt as if I was forcing a connection with them. I hope my head is getting to me, and I need to adjust.

God, I don't know.

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"HELLO! Would you like to come to our mass on Sunday?"

"No, thank you!"

"Hello! Would you like a flyer?"

"No!"

"Hello! Would you like to hear about—"

"No!"

A long afternoon, with a ninety percent 'no' rate, and a ten percent 'yes' rate. However, the yes remarks were from already catholic students, not new ones. "Ah, rough day, here, Francine; how about you try?" Julia asked. She put her hand on her hips, looking at me. I had only been holding the flyers for them. I was silent and didn't do much. This is the first time I have ever done something like this.

"Sure...who should I give one to?"

"Anyone! The first person you see!"

I nodded, determined, and began looking around for the next person who was about to walk by.

"Oh, there is a girl right there! Quick! Ask!"

"On it!"

I rushed over to the girl Carmen pointed at and tapped her shoulder. Well, the shoulder that was exposed. She hardly had a shirt on. It was lower than anything I'd ever worn.

"Hello...would you..."

I paused for a moment as she began to turn around. The girl had dark, bold makeup on, wore very dark clothing, and had a partially shaved head. Her hair was in a ponytail, exposing the shaved area in the back.

This was a bad idea; I needed to abort.

"Excuse me?...."

The girl looked at me, up and down, glaring. "Sorry, I didn't mean to bother you...but uh...we were... us!" I pointed to myself, then to Carmen and Julia, who looked at me strangely. I felt as if I was sweating so much doing this. "Yeah?" The girl sassed. She looked me up and down, and stared into my eyes, intensely.

"Well... haha...we are part of the Uh....the uh..."

She smiled at me a bit, lifting her eyebrows. Why was I so damn nervous! DEEP BREATHES

"The uh....the..."

"Yesssss....?"

She wasn't too scary, but how she would stare at me intensely made me nervous.

"The...Catholic society...and we are having mass on Sunday...would you like to come?" I asked. I felt so relieved that I could finally spit it out. "Catholic?...." She asked. I nodded at her, relieved that she didn't suddenly say no.

"And...you will be there?"

"Yes! I will! I plan to be there every Sunday! It is at eleven in the morning!"

"Hmmm....and...will you be my personal teacher? To teach about god?" She asked. YES! She might be interested! MY FIRST ONE! I could not help but smile from being excited. "Ah! Yes! If you wanted me to, I could work something out!" I smiled. She had this silly grin on her face. "Oh? How hands-on will it be?" She smirked. She grabbed the paper and placed her hand on mine as she did.

For some reason...my heart felt like it was about to explode, but I couldn't understand why. It kept beating quickly, and my hands began to shake. "Oh...well...not very hands-on...I mean...how hands-on did you want it to be? I mean, this would be my first time doing that, so I'm not sure..."

"First time?...."

"YES! I've never taught someone...but I can do my best!"

She looked like she wanted to laugh now, and I felt even more confused. She took the flyer from me, still smiling. Until she finally...burst out laughing.

"Pfft...you are cute; I like the clueless ones..."

"What?...."

"Ah, as much as it would be tempting to see your cute face again, I'm not religious! I'm the complete opposite..."

Opposite? So she is an atheist? That is a sin! Oh no...if she continues on that path...she will...she will be damned for eternity. I need to... no...I have to save her... I don't know her very much, but I can tell she is a lovely person! She deserves more! "Really? Are you sure? I could...do whatever you like? I can teach you anything!" I tried to say.

She lifted her brow at me, a bit stunned. "Hmmm... I doubt a cute catholic girl like you could teach me something I want to learn."

"I CAN TRY!"

"Eh?...maybe another time, doll face! I love the effort, though; I like girls who beg for me...it's nice..." she smiled. The girl waved the flyer in front of my face, and I...

Well, I don't know what happened.

For the first time in my life...

No...this has happened before.

But that was a long time ago. So now it will be new. For the first time in my adult life...I felt the blood rush to my cheeks as I heard her say those words.

She likes girls?

That couldn't have meant what I think, right?

"See you, good luck with the uh....mass? Yeah! Good luck!" She smiled. The girl turned away from me, causing me to look at Carmen and Julia. They were giving me a confused thumbs up as I walked back over to them, frazzled. "That was great! She took the flyer! That means she will consider it...and hopefully, she does. That girl looked scary; she could use faith in her life..." Carmen began.

As she continued talking, I began to drown out her voice. I was still thinking of that girl I just met. There was something about her that made me want to verbally say, "wow, what a woman."

Something along those lines would best describe how she made butterflies flap in my stomach. That girl...she was...Jesus...she...

Sorry Jesus...

She was... AGDJSHEIDKABSKFJEKSBHRKSSBEJEJWNS

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

"Francine? Are you okay? Your face! It's red!"