''when im seventeen..do you remember the day i saved you [porche nod his head as yes..how he can forget the day]
that day evening i go to my uncle house..you know what .he is like my father..i love him so much..but that day...when i went .....[porche hold kinn's hand and stop him from speaking..kinn slowly turn to look at porche with teary eyes.. that's so hard to explain]
''you don't need to say that.[porche look at kinn's falling hair on his face].i know everything ''porche said while fixing kinn's hair .,,.
''you know?''kinn look at porche with questioning look..
''yes..when you get panick attack in the car..also you cried in sleep...i really worried..so i asked your mother.and she said everything.,,i thought i need to understand you more.but before i try anything you start to keep distance from us..[porche look down]
you don't even come to see me in the hospital..when i need you more [tears are falling down from both of their eyes]
i expected you there..i want you to hold our son first when he born ....but you didn't..you didn't even there after he born too..i can take your hatress over me but not our son..im so scared you know [porche look at kinn while smiling but his eyes are holding his tears]
I don't want you to hate him...''
kinn bite his lips from sobbing..
''i....i don't hate you or him..im just afraid if i allow my self to love you two..you two one day leave me..i.. I can't take that....[ kinn look at their wedding ring in his hand ...]
i love you a long ago...maybe i can say i like you the day i saw you first..but im just..just couldn't try to accept the truth..
whenever i try to open up to you..the nightmares are start to hunt me so hard ,,,sob...i want to there when phoenix born..but that same thing stop me..
you don't know how happy im when i feel his moment inside your stomache..that day..that day is the best day in my life.,..
i..im sorry..[kinn look at porche ..his tears are keep falling]
i did horrible thing to you..but i didn't mean it..i really not in my right mind..[kinn hold porche hand in his] i swear ,.trust me..''
porche take his hand from kinn and wipe his tears..
''i know..i can easily understand you..'' porche place a kiss on kinn's forehead.....
''that tawan put a drug pill in my drink.. that's why..i behave like that...im really sorry..''
porche gritting his teeth in anger..how dare that tawan..
''if i see him..i will kill him..''porche said in anger..kinn immediately give a peck on porche's lips..
''i already did..''kinn said while smiling..
porche eyes are widen...
''you..you killed..did you get over from your traruma...''porche ask happily...
kinn just nod his head..
''the day you both leave me....''
''ow...im so happy you finally get over it..''porche jump on kinn and hug him tightly while laying on the sand...
kinn also hug back him...
''me too''
kinn place a kiss on porche's head who laying on his chest..
''im sorry too kinn..
[kinn look at porche's neck where porche hanging their wedding ring in his chain..]
''what for?''kinn ask while caresing his hair...
''i shouldn't force you to marry me'' porche look at kinn guiltly while up from kinn and sit back...kinn also sit beside porche.but this time so close..
''im the reason you ... [before porche finish his words kinn capture porche lips in his..first porche get shock..but he slowly become relief and put he put his hand around kinn's neck and share a passionate kiss.....
