The Secret (Book 1 of the Secret Series)

Chapter 63.

I moaned as I opened my eyes and found that it was all blurry. Someone was holding my hand, and I could hear a continual beep. I knew that beep well. It was that monitor that told me how fast my heart was going. I closed my eyes again and coughed a few times. The hand tightened on mine. Slowly, I opened my eyes and it was less blurry. I found that I was looking at Ms. Kelly.

She smiled sadly and stroked my hair. I closed my eyes again and she kissed my head. I shook as a wave of cold filled me. She put the blanket over my shoulders and continued to stroke my hair. She never said a word, just stayed there. She was so gentle, and I started to cry, because I missed my momma and Da.

I felt the bed shift as someone sat on it beside me and I looked over at Jordan. It was the first time that I had seen him out of his room, since I had gotten here, a week and a half ago. He had come to see me. I smiled trough my tears and he lay down beside me, because I knew that he cared. I also knew that he missed his dad. I actually missed his dad.

"Jordan." I whispered and he took my hand in answer. "I'm sorry."

"It's okay Baby, it's not your fault." technically, it was. His dad had died, protecting me. He had died, because he wouldn't give up information about me. I didn't argue though, because I was really weak right now and I didn't want to fight with my best friend, not about something like that.

He kissed my head and sighed. I closed my eyes again and I fell asleep next to him.

Ms. Kelly held my hand as we walked toward the car station. I was tired and wanted to go to bed, but she wanted me to do something that would get me active again. Reluctantly, I agreed, even though Jordan wouldn't be coming with us. It made me sad, because I wanted him to. Even more reluctantly, the man who had brought me here, had agreed, but the doctor had said it would be a good thing for me to have time with another girl. It would help me "cope", I think was the word he had used. I didn't know.

I yawned and let Ms. Kelly put me in the car. She buckled me up and then closed the door and got up front. She smiled at the man that had brought me here and he smiled some back. He waved at us and she waved back. I just sat in the back and waited for us to drive off. I wanted to get out of there for a while. It wasn't the same as it had been a long time ago.

Used to, I looked forward to going, just so I could feel that good feeling after, as if I were higher than the tallest person in there, like I weighed nothing and floated above everyone. It felt good and that was what I wanted. I had come to see Ms. Kelly, and find out how she was doing. The way she always smiled made me feel better when I was having a hard time. She always made me happy...

But now, it was all different. I wanted to get out of there. I wanted to go back home and see my mommy and daddy. I wanted my brothers and I wanted to listen to Kyle play his games. I wanted to watch Sammie draw and make up funny little characters for his silly little stories. I wanted to taste mommy's cooking again. I wanted to sit in daddy's lap as he read the news paper before dinner.

I wanted to cry because they didn't love me anymore. I wanted to cry because they had lied to me and told me that I didn't have to take the injections anymore. I wanted to cry, because I had to take the injections again. I wanted to cry because I didn't want to remember...

Ms. Kelly pulled off onto the side of the rode and I looked at her. She got out of the car and opened the back door. I looked at her as she got in beside me. She pulled out a syringe and looked at me.

"Ms. Kelly?" I whispered and she lifted my arm. I tried to pull it away, but she gripped tight. "Ms. Kelly, you're hurting me." there were tears running down her face as she stuck the needle into my arm and pushed the clear liquid into me. I started to feel so sleepy that I slumped back into the seat. Ms. Kelly stroked my hair and I closed my eyes. She unbuckled me and pulled me out of the car. I moaned as the sunlight blinded me.