Hope's Love

Chapter Three: Unloving you

Hope's POV

"We can't really do anything to wake her up sir, she is just unconscious." I could hear faint voices, ah... My head aches, I am parched. Oh my god! What's wrong with me? Did I get hit by a bus?
I need to drink something is all I can think about, I open my eyes slowly to see my worrisome mom on my left.
"Hope, princess, are you awake now?" Mom asks me while putting her hand on my hand.
I nod a little and try to gulp but it is a little hard to do so, my throat is dry, I need water.My bed goes up, as my mom pushes the button. Aarth Bhai quickly puts a glass of water in front of my lips, I quickly gulp down the entire glass and take a breath of relief.

"What happened?" I say as I try to remember. Then my whole body goes numb, as I realize what had happened. He had left me, I cried, and then the pain in my chest.
"Do you not remember what happened princess?" Aarth Bhai asks, as I nod positively and speak, "Now I do!" I hear the door push open and my father and Arjun Bhai rushing in, "Hope, my sweet baby" Dad hugs me gently as I wrap my arms around him doing the same.

Tears fall unknowingly, my pain is so much that I can't express it with words. Tears make me so weak that they choke me from inside, it is so hard on me that I don't even realize that I am sobbing now, that my mom and Aarth bhai are also hugging me from the other side. I just want to die, I am such a loser. I make my parents cry, I am such a bad child.

I was stuffing my face with bread and soup which this sh*tty hospital provided. They can't even give me some waffles for breakfast, I huff in
annoyance as I gulp down the entire soup in one go. Taking the long bread in my hand I eat it as fast as possible and get out of the bed to wash my hands. I enter the sad looking bathroom, white walls, white tiles,white lights, gosh! This is a blank canvas, I can draw in here. Can I?

I open the tab and wash my hands and face, I rinse my mouth and look at the mirror hanging in front of me. I look so thin, so dull, my dyed ginger hair is loose, I could still see the small dark spot on my neck as I remove some strands of my hair. It's a hickey I got from him, just 2 days before he left me. I take my hand and put it on my face as I remember something.

"You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my entire life. "
He speaks with a smile on his face as he puts his palms on my face. Another memory pops up as I still stare at myself in the mirror.

"I love you, Say it, see I... Love... you." I hold his head still and make him look at my lips, I mean it;s been 3 years of our relationship and
he still can't look at me when he says I love you.
"First decide, should I see or say?" He jokes and I make a sad face. "Oh god! Here" He looks in my eyes and takes my hands in his and
confesses , "I love you" And that makes me go all red.

A tear escapes without my permission, I just can't hold back. A knock on the door makes me wipe my tears and I wash my face one last time
before exiting the boring bathroom.
I see Arielle and Dylan standing in front of the door as they just entered.
"Thank God! Thank you so much! We are so glad that you are okay! You can't scare us like that, you know how scared I was when
you ... you passed out, you said it hurted and clutched your chest, I was so so worried!" Arielle hugs me and sobs, so does Dylan, and I too start to well up.
"Stop it guys you both will make me cry", I pull away from the hug not wanting to cry again.

"Yeah! This b*t*ch can't cry over that sh*tface again" Dylan inserts and I and Arielle laugh at his unique sense language. Well, Dylan is
bisexual, he can kill anyone with his words, literally. He thinks everyone looks down on him for that, as Arjun bhai, older brother is perfectly straight, with straight 'A', even though he loves his brother the most. '
Arielle likes to be alone, saying there is no man that she can trust, even without trying. She loves to ogle at guys. That is a different thing, a virgin
pervert that is what we call her. Aunty Shanaya is always worried about her tomboy ways, she said 'she is her father's child . Nothing about her is like me'
"You know as soon as you recover, we are going on a trip." Dylan practically yells.
I nod but ask smiling, "Where?"
Arielle smirks looking at Dylan and I know they have something planned up.
"You don't need to know", They speak up in an annoying voice. I shrug and sit on the bed, the door opens and my big brother enters with a basket of fruit in his hands, " Hi, my beautiful little sister"
Max bhai and I have a very deep relationship, more like father and daughter rather than brother and sister. All my brothers take care of me but Bhai was very special for me since I was very little.
I mean, my parents are the best in this whole world, but my brothers are someone I respect and care about.
My lips spread wide across my face as I reply him with enthusiasm, "Hi bhai"

These few days in the hospital were hectic,the food was horrible and the bathroom was very very boring and sad looking. Being an architect and people think being into interior designing has made me get this habit. But I have always been like this. I love colour and design, there were only three things that made me feel alive, one was my profession and family, the other was him.

I had packed my stuff the day Arjun bhai told me I was cleared. I love him, I really do love each and every brother of mine but being here was a
torture. This is torture, oh god, they don't even leave me alone for a minute.
I am now in my house, laying on my bed after spending 10 days in the hospital. Oh, this was unbelievable.Tomorrow we are going to go to god
knows where? These two idiots are not letting me know where we are going.
"Princess, can I come in?" My mum knocks on the door interrupting my thoughts.
I smile at her and nod, " Yes mum"
She sits on the bed beside me and I put my laptop down on the bed as I am still working on some designs.
She takes my hand in hers and speaks, "You know we all love you right?"
"Ha, mum," I replied.
She takes a breath and says, " I think you need some professional help, baby."
I sigh and tell her, " I don't think there is any need for that mum. I am okay"

She cuts me off and says, " If you were okay then you would not have been in the hospital, baby you were born weak but your will to
stay alive was always strong. And there is nothing wrong with asking for help when you need it the most. Just think about this, I don't want to force you but this is for your and our best. You mean alot to your brothers, father, friends and me."
"I will think about it, mum,after I come back from this trip. Let's talk again", I understand her concern, but right now all I wanna do is be
free and feel alive.

The only thing that can make me feel this way, the only way, is to unloving you, Adrian.

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Hello,
It's been a while since I have been working on this book and it is not my favourite or very nice book according to me. But it is here, so please enjoy.

Thank you so much.

Bhai- Brother