My Growing Heartache

Chapter 32: Mistakes Can Happen.

Okay. Just to let you, read the whole chapter through. Don't get mad and stop cause there's always a light at the end of the tunnel and just ponder over the little saying and the name of the chapter. *wink wink*

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"Are you sure it's right?" I ask for the third time.

"Yes. That bar means that your not pregnant." She answered for the third time. I feel like the wind got knocked out of me and my heart sinks. I try to think of excuses in my head for why this thing is wrong, but I can't. Yeah, I may be a little young to be thinking about being pregnant, but I'd rather be pregnant now then never at all.

"Bu...but there's a faint line there..." I point out.

"I think it doesn't matter if its faint." Rosa says. She pulls me into a hug and rubs my back.

"I'll never have kids and William will leave me for someone who can." I say, crying on her shoulder.

After about an hour of comforting me, Rosa had to leave but she told me she'd check back on me tomorrow. I called William since I was feeling lonely.

"Hey love, how are you?"

"Hey. Can you come over?" I ask, still crying.

"What's wrong? Are you alright?"

"I'm fine. I just need company." I say. He says ok and we hang up.

I lay down on my bed and stare blankly at the wall.

"Kenz? What's going on?" I stay quiet. "Are you sure you're okay?" He asks, sitting by me and touching my cheek.

I nod, getting off of the bed. I go into the bathroom and get the tests. I walk into the room and sit next to William on the bed, showing them to him.

"It's negative..." I say, my voice cracking.

"Maybe it's a good thing it's negative."

"What?" I look at him as if he were crazy.

"Think about it. Your parents would flip out and I don't know how my parents would take it. Maybe, just for right now, it's good that you're not pregnant." He said.

"What makes you think that I'll ever be able to get pregnant if I can't now. Any regular person would've been knocked up by now with the amount of times we haven't used protection but me and my fucked up body can't. You hate me, don't you? It's okay because your gonna leave me for a girl who can give you children anyways and I won't mind, it's okay for--" I rant.

"Kennise, stop it! Look at me," he demanded. "I would never leave you. Yes, I'd like to have kids, but I'd rather be happy with you and adopt than to be miserable by leaving you and being with someone who can have a child. Don't you ever think like that again." He said, kissing my forehead.

"Okay. But are you positive?"

"I'm 100% times infinity positive." He smiled, "Now, does that make you satisfied?"

"Yeah, I guess. Can we just cuddle?"

We lay down without another word. William wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me closer to him. I stay awake for a few minutes to think but my body wouldn't let me stay up anymore, so I fall asleep.

I wake up and look over my shoulder, seeing William still here. I was surprised because he usually leaves at night. He has his elbows on his knees and something in his hands. I stretch and sit up, telling him good morning.