My Growing Heartache

Chapter 38: OB/ GYN

*2 months later*
"So, you havent spoken to William yet, have you?" Rissa asks.
"Nope." I say, popping the p. I guess you could say that I realized the hard way that he was really serious. He really never talked to me and the only time he did was to ask whether I'm taking my medicine or if I'm eating and the conversation ends there. He doesn't stop by, he doesn't rub my slightly-there belly, and he doesn't bother me any more. He even stopped sitting with me at lunch! All William does now is buy me something, practically throws it down in front of me, and walks away to sit with that girl, which really breaks my heart, but, after all, this is what I wanted...isn't it?
"Why am I so stupid?" I ask her out loud.
"I don't know. But you need to fix whatever you did wrong!" She says, not making me feel any better. She walks out of my room and shuts the door, leaving me to think.
I sat there for a minute and remembered that the doctor called last week and again yesterday and said that he scheduled my appointment with the ob/gyn so they can monitor my progress, seeing as how I'm already 3 months along. Picking up my phone, I dial Williams number to let him know.
"Hello." He answered, after what felt like a sea of rings, his voice deep and groggy as if he just woke up. I always loved his sleepy voice...
"Hey, umm, I have a doctors appointment today. Can you come.. Well if your not busy.. But it's fine if you are." I say, nervously blabbering. I mentally face palm myself and bite my lip as I wait for his response.
"What time is the appointment?"
"3:45."
"I'll be outside in 30 minutes." He says, hanging up before I could say okay.
It was already 2:38 so I had to hurry cause it's a 15 minute drive.
I go into the bathroom, taking a shower, then lotion quickly and put on my under garments.
I go into my closet and get out a maxi dress and a jean jacket, putting them on and putting on some sandals. I put on my earrings and necklace, some neutral toned make up, and a little eyeliner and mascara. Grabbing my purse, I left the room, my hair in the neat bun that it was already in from this morning. I go downstairs and out the house, looking in my purse, while walking, for my car keys. When I finally find them and look up, I gasp dropping my keys and putting a hand on my heart. I was face to face with William, about 7 inches away from him. He was leaning on his car which was parked in my driveway, stifling a laugh.
"Why do I get scared so easily." I mumble, about to pick up my keys.
"Because you allow yourself to be scared." William replies, picking up my keys and handing them to me. I inhale his scent as I have so many times before and I realized I really miss smelling him everyday.
I snap out of it and say, "Thanks.." going around him and walking to my car, which was parked next to the sidewalk cause I was too lazy to reverse into the driveway, so I just parked here. I get in and start up the engine, taking off with William following close behind me.
***
When we arrive there, I park next to Williams car and get out. We walk to the office in silence, him a few steps behind me.
I tell the receptionist that I'm here for my appointment and she gives me some information sheets to fill out. I take a seat next to William and begin to write down the required answers to the questions. After a few moments, I notice that William has been shaking his leg, so I ask "You okay?"
"Yeah. Just a little nervous." He says, checking his watch for the time.
"Why you so nervous?" I ask, confused.
"Because, this is my first time coming to hear anything about the baby."
"Oh." I say simply, going back to filing out my forms. When I finish, I give it to the girl behind the desk and take a seat, waiting to be called.
"Kennise, the doctor is ready for you." An assistant says, looking at William and grinning hard. She looked our age and had brown hair cut into a bob shape. I roll my eyes at her and get out of my seat after William, who wipes the sweat off his palms on his jeans first. We follow the receptionist to the room with my doctor in it and when William was about to walk in after me, she winked at him and he smirked. Can you believe it? He freaking smirked! I had to keep telling myself that he and I aren't together anymore to calm myself down.
"Hello, I'm Dr. Karen. Today I'll just monitor your baby's heart beat and make sure that everything is going like its supposed to." She says, smiling widely and I smile back. "Are you the father?" She asks, turning to William who was standing in the corner close the the chair I was sitting in with his hands in his pockets.
"Yes." He says.
"Has she been taking her vitamins and eating the right things?" She asks him as if I'm not there, and clicks her pen to document I guess.
"Yes, at least she does while I'm around. I try to make sure she eats throughout the day." He replies.
"Okay, that's good." She says, motioning for me to come to her to check basic things like my weight, pulse, blood pressure, and things like that. She continues asking a little more questions and then she tells us to follow her to the ultrasound room to hear the baby's heartbeat.
"...And that little sound is the baby's heartbeat." She says and it all feels real now. I actually have a baby inside my belly. I don't know why, but I start crying and she hands me a tissue, telling me it's completely normal to cry when hearing the heart beat.
When she finished the ultrasound, she took us back to the regular room and wrote down more information.
"Well, everything sounds normal. You should be just fine as long as you take your vitamins and eat the right things."
"Okay thanks Dr. Karen." I say with a smile.
"No problem. But, I do see that you are pretty young and you are not that far along in your pregnancy. Are you thinking about abortion or adoption?" She asks.
"No, that's not an option for me." I say honestly. I sat there and did the time necessary to make this baby so now I'm going to spend my time taking care of it.
"Okay, thank you Kennise and William. I'll be sure to contact you and let you know when you need to come back." She said and then we left the room. William walked out of the room just as I got my purse and got out the chair.
"William..please wait!" I say, running after him.
"What is it." He said, facing me.
"I know you're not happy with her." I say.
"What?" He asks, looking at me with disbelief.
"I mean, why don't you just leave her and come back to me. I know you miss me and I miss you too." I reply, desperation evident in my voice. I've been trying to work up the nerve to talk to him but my pride wouldn't let me. It's not till today that I've heard my... our baby's heartbeat that I realized I need him.
"You still don't get it, do you?" He said, chuckling deeply, "I don't know what to do with you. Honestly, I don't think we should be together until you start to work on your insecurities. It's ruining you and me. It's ruining us! You say you are so grown but your actions don't prove it. I told you the truth already, now it's up to you to decide whether you take it or leave it." He says the last part softly, then he walks away from me. I stand there, frozen, replaying every word he said to me. And what he said is true. I'm so insecure from all my past relationships that my expectations were that he was going to hurt me, even though my accusations are the reason why I'm single.
I go into the bathroom that was a few more steps down the hall and use a napkin to wipe the tears on my face which I just notice. I gather myself then go back to the receptionist and set up a payment plan then leave. I drive off to the nearest ice cream shop and order a large Oreo ice cream cone with chocolate syrup and chocolate sprinkles. I never used to like chocolate on chocolate like this until I got pregnant, but oh well, I'm not complaining because it tastes do good. I get my ice cream and park my car to eat it. I know it won't last long, but I'm grateful for the temporary bliss and solitude I feel from eating this delicious ice cream.

*1 week later*
"Rosa, I think it's time."
"Omg! Are you having the baby?! Should I call 911?!" Rosa says, frantically rushing to find her phone. We were at her house alone working on some project that is due tomorrow- talk about procrastinators- but, as usual, we zoned off and started talking about random stuff.
"No you dummy!" I say, throwing the pillow at her head and laughing, " I meant, I think it's time that I try to talk to William again."
"Oh, don't scare me like that." She says with a hand on her heart.
"Do you think I should talk to him?" I ask nervously, rubbing my little belly. It's a small habit I've picked up. Whenever I'm nervous I do it and it calms me down somewhat.
"Yeah, I think you should. I mean, all you had to do was hear him out to begin with but, of course, you had to just-"
"Okay! I don't need another lecture to make me know how stupid I am." I say, putting my hands over my ears. "I'm going to call him." I pick up my phone from the night stand next to me and dial one of the few numbers that I know by heart.
"Hello."
"Hey, William? I was wondering.. could you meet me at the park so we can talk?" I ask.
"Okay." He says with a sigh and we hang up.
"I'll be back." I tell Rosa, heading out of her room and down the stairs.
"Where are you going?! We have a project to do!" She yells after me.
"I know, that's why I'm sleeping over tonight." I say, smiling at her confused expression and heading out the door. I set my phone to alarm so I don't leave Rosa waiting too long.
***
I've been sitting on the bench at the park for about 5 minutes now, waiting for William to get here. Every time I hear a car pull up, I keep thinking its him, but it's not, so I begin to get up to take a walk.
"Leaving so soon?" I hear William say from behind me.
"No, just about to take a walk." I reply turning around. He had on a plain white v-neck polo shirt, khaki cargo pants with the bottom folded, and some white converse's. Simple, but sexy.
"We can walk and talk then." He says.
"Okay. Well, I realized what you said to me was true. You know, about me being insecure? Well I am. But I'm also an arrogant bitch who jumped to conclusions. I should've trusted you and heard you out and I know it's too late but I just want you to know that I really do like you and I want to do this...us again. Please, I'm begging you to take me back. I want...no, I need you back in my life." I say quickly, jumbling the words together.
"Why?" Was all he said but I understood exactly what he meant.
"Because I miss your laugh, your smile, your sleepy voice, you waking me up to get you a cookie, your hugs, your kisses, your cuddles, you calling me cute names and calling me your baby doll, and your annoying ways. But above everything else I just miss you." I say, desperation evident in my voice.
"Okay. But on one condition."
"Anything."
"You have to sit down and talk with Samantha so she can explain what you saw." He says. When he said the name I was confused but then when he finished the rest of what he had to say, I knew Samantha was the girl from his room and the one who he sits with at lunch.
"Will you take me back if I do." I ask, wanting to say no.
"Whatever your answer is is what my answer is."
"Then my answer is yes."
"And so is mine." He says with a half smile.
"Okay, when should we meet?"
"Right now."
"Right now?" I say surprised. "I think neither I nor she is ready." I shake my head. Talk about short notice.
"It's either now or never." He says seriously.
"Okay. I'll follow you." We walk to our cars and I follow him to the direction of his house.
I park behind him in the driveway and get out, following him to the front door then into the house.
William directs me to the living room and I sit down on the love seat. He sprints up the stairs and as he comes back down, Samantha is following him and her belly is more noticeable. I watch her wobble down the stairs, holding tightly to the rail and watching her steps. When she gets to the bottom, she lets out a breath and looks up at me then smiles. I just give a small smile back and look away.
William waits for her to walk into the living room then helps her sit and I get a little jealous because he doesn't do that for me but, then again, I'm not that pregnant yet.
She was sitting on the love seat with me and William was sitting in the recliner on the other side of me leaning forward with his elbows in his knees.
"Hi. I've heard so many good things about you." She says with an accent like William's.
"Thanks ." I smile.
"Okay...About what you saw that day.." She said, starting to explain what happened. She told me every detail about it and she even began to tell me about why she's here.
"So, now you know what happened and you see that William was just being a good friend." She says with a smile. She is so nice and I can tell that she and I are going to be good friends. Plus, she understands what I'm going though because she is also pregnant.
"Thank you for telling me that. I really needed to hear it." I say, leaning over and giving her a hug.
"No problem. Now, I'll leave you two to talk. If you need me, I'll be in the kitchen stuffing my face." She got up after a little struggle then wobbled away to the kitchen.
"I'm so sorry I didn't believe you.." I say first.
"I forgive you. Now can we please get over this?" He asks.
"Mkay." I say. William gets up and sits next to me on the loveseat, then pulls me into his lap. I wrap my arms around his neck and hug him as if its the last thing I'll ever do. "I love you." I say.
"I love you too. Will you be my girlfriend again?" He asked and I immediately answer with a "Hell Yes!"
He smiles a genuine smile and I lean in and do what I've been longing and dreaming of doing: I kissed my boyfriend. And it damn well felt good.
"You don't know how much I missed you.." He mumbled as we broke the kiss.
"I think I have a clue." I say, shifting on his lap because...well, do I really have to go much further?
"Baby doll, that's not even half of it." He says and I just sit there and stare at him for a while. I feel so relieved to be back to us being like this. I would've stayed there with him for the night but the alarm on my phone went off and I knew I had to go.
"It's getting pretty late. I should get back to Rosa's." I say, breaking the silence and turning off the alarm.
"Okay. Or...you can keep me company tonight." William says, more like asks, as he rubs small circles on my stomach.
"William... Rosa would kill me for making her do all the work." I say, gently removing his arms from around me and standing. "Besides, the weekend is almost here and we can spend time together then."
"Fine...I'll see you tomorrow." He gets up and gives me a hug, then leans down and kisses my stomach, making me smile.
"Okay...bye." I say and he waves.
I walk out the house and let out a breath, then do a happy dance. I got my man back! I make my way to my car and when I look back up, there's a third car in the driveway. It wasn't here before, so who is it?
When the owner steps out the car, I gasp and stand there in shock. What're they doing here?
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