Say 'Kiss'! • bxb

12. A drag queen

Mateo's P.O.V.

Friday comes very soon, without any unwanted incidents except a few fights between me and Tobias that were either unresolved or not big enough to care about them.

He would glare at me every night before turning around and going to bed, and of course I had to return the favor. If my stare could burn holes into someone's head he would be dead already.

Now we're both getting ready for the party, an awkward and weird mood in the air. We promised we wouldn't talk about my "incident" from Tuesday morning, but he kept making jokes whenever I started a fight with him.

It's almost as if that is his only way of responding to me if I say anything slightly mean to him.

"Limp dick" he said once while I was so angry I was ready to punch him, but his words took me aback and made me so shocked I had to recover for 10 minutes.

After he changes into his clothes, a pair of jeans and a white T-shirt with a shirt over it, he puts on eyeliner, which makes me stare at him in confusion.

"What are you doing?" I ask and he stops for a second to look at me through his mirror, that is hanging on his open closet.

"What do you think?"

It's not very visible, if I hadn't seen him do it I don't think I would've noticed it, but it makes his eyes look prettier.

"Are you like... A drag queen?"

He turns around now, completely confused and speechless.

"I'm not even gonna bother" he puts the eyeliner down and sits on his bed texting someone.

"Ready for the party?" I smirk and he does the same.

"You mean if I'm ready to see everyone get drunk and throw up everywhere? Sure"

"That's college"

I brush my hair, struggling and giving up almost two times because of the pain, tears in my eyes while I sniff and grunt. It's curly and messy, I don't have the patience to deal with it right now.

"Come on! You can do it!" Tobias claps for me, half sarcastically.

After I do that we're ready to go. The party is at a house not too far away from the dorms that Greg's very "not rich" parents decided to rent for his birthday. It's nothing special, he's turning 21, but they still make a big deal out of it.

"If I find a witch can I pay her to summon a dinosaur for me?" Arun, Lina's younger brother, who's only 11 years old, asks excited.

Both me and Tobias look at him confused. Lina somehow managed to accept to take me with them to the party with her car, and I'm still confused how something like this could've happened.

The only problem is that she has to take care of her younger brother since her parents are "out on a date" apparently. But she can't leave him alone so the only option left was taking him to the party with her.

"Stay in the car and eat your gummies or... Whatever" she says when we arrive but Arun shakes his head and feet instead.

"I wanna go to the party"

"No no, that's for adults. Like us. You have to stay here"

In the end he started throwing a big tantrum, throwing his fists in the air and crying hysterically. The only option was to take him with us inside, no matter how bad that actually would turn out to be.

As soon as I see Sarah, wearing a short dark purple dress, I know I want to dig a hole and bury myself right here. The first thing that comes to my mind is to get drunk so that is why I ignore everyone around me and go straight for the bottles of alcohol on the table.

"Happy birthday, babe" I hug Greg as tightly as I can and he covers his mouth, letting out a weird giggle.

"Not here kitten whiskers, people are watching"

"Let them watch, I'll still devour the shit out you tonight... Y'know... When we're both alone" I caress his face and he cringes.

"Stay away from me idiot"

"Where's the weed?" I suddenly changed the subject, reminding myself that there are other ways to forget about Sarah besides drinking stuff I don't even like most of the time.

"Are you assuming I have drugs because I'm Jamaican?"

"No, I'm assuming you have drugs because you're a college student"

"Go to the second floor. But really Mateo... If you need to talk I'm here. Don't just go around doing stupid shit, ignoring your emotions"

"Yeah sure" I shout, already making my way to the stairs.

The people on this floor are already high. Well, most of them. There's a thick smoke in the air and when someone passes me a joint, I smoke it without hesitation. I feel a bit sloppy, and weird, but mostly everything remains the same and I curse at life.

I go back downstairs and try to make my way to the toilet but almost trip and fall, against a couple that are shoving their tongues down each other's throats. It's got a funny kick now because I can see the room spinning a bit.

"Shit. Excuse me. Go on" the words come out of my mouth without me caring about what I say.

Whatever's on my mind also comes out, but thankfully my mind is mostly blank now. I get to the bathroom and take a good look in the mirror. My eyes are red as hell and I laugh for a few minutes, before realizing how crazy I look.

"Shut up. You look stupid... Well, you kind of are stupid. We kind of look the same though... Wait"

It takes me some time to realize I'm talking to myself, not someone else. I laugh again, but this time it turns into violent sobs as I try to control myself.

There's a knock on the door and I flinch, startled, but shout with all my strenght.

"Go away. It's that time of the month for me" I shout while crying and I probably scared whoever was out there enough so that they didn't bother me anymore after that.

I sit down on the bathroom floor and look down at my hands again. Why is this shit so strong? I only took a puff out of it and I can already feel my whole head spinning.

My head is tilted back and I probably look like a mess right now, but I don't care. I feel slightly more relaxed and at least I'm not thinking about anything anymore.

I hear the music from outside and smile faintly.