Chosen Love

Right in your face.

"Alaia, I'm not tryna say no wild shit but are you tryna get pregnant?" Chosen asked as she lay on top of him.

He was pulling hairs out of her face as they lay there.

She looked at him, and he sighed.

"Look, I know that shit sucks fa real." He said, lifting her up and looking in her eyes.

"I'm crazy aren't I?" She looked at him, and he sighed.

"A lil bit but i fucks wit yo crazy ass." He said smirking and she lightly hit his arm.

"I just-." She paused as she looked at him.

"Feel weird. " She said and he nodded.

He knew what she meant.

She wasn't far along but she felt the loss, he felt the loss.

"Ay, I get it. If yo ass wanna have another baby we can. I mean we can wait do that counseling shit they suggested." He said and she sat up looking at him.

"You think-" She started and he cut her off.

"Na, ion think you crazy. I just don't want you sad. Ion want you thinkin we gotta have a baby." He said and she looked at him.

"Na not like that." He sighed.

"Alaia I love you. I love our kids and if you want more we can have em." He said and she nodded.

"But if you have a lot goin on, which we do it is fine to wait and if you wanna grieve lemme do that shit wit you." He said and Alaia couldn't help but crack a smile at him.

She had been taking things hard but she was managing. Chosen had been spending the last few weeks trying to figure out what he could do. He didn't see that he had to many options. He wanted things to be easier again and if he could figure out how he would.

"So you wanna go to consoling?" She asked and he shrugged.

"I mean i ain't never gone but if you wanna im down." He said to her.

"I mean I know yo ass wasn't thrilled bein pregnant, but erry day that shit changed. Mostly cause of me." He smirked and she rolled her eyes.

"I just know when we rushed to the hospital and they said they couldn't save the baby... the look on your face. I felt that." He said grabbing her hand.

"These last few weeks yo ass been back at work trying to deal wit Warren and the twins." He said brushing her hair back.

"You strong as fuck and I'm sayin we can have a baby." He said once more making her chuckle.

"But i just wanna make sure you not doin it to fill a void, like you want a baby." He said and she smirked at him.

"Oh now you wanna know if I wanna have a baby?" She teased and he laughed.

He knew a month ago he hadn't even bothered asking her when they found out she was pregnant.

"Alaia a nigga tryna be fa real." He said and she nodded.

"I know and I don't know.. I mean I do." She admitted and he nodded.

"Well me too." He said to her and she smiled.

"Do you want a baby? Like are you okay wit it?" She asked and he smiled

"Now you know I do." He said and she grabbed his hand.

"I jus be scared... what if it happens again?" She said and he nodded.

He could see on her face that she was worried, he was to but he didn't want her to notice it.