the last summer | conrad fisher

morning after

i woke up in the arms of conrad. opening my eyes to see the light shining through reminded me of everything that happened last night. everything came flooding back to me like a wave. every single second of what happened, even the part of conrad beating the shit out of him. maybe he does care after all. but it was obvious he wanted me to not remember it, so i'll keep it that way. they don't need to know that i know even though every bone in my body aches and my throat hurts from all the screaming. i slowly move away from conrad getting up being quite making sure not to wake him up going into my room where i see ivy passed out on my bed. i grab my grey hooie and some grey joggers to match and go to the bathroom.

i close the door behind me as i start to undress myself. i touch my arms when flashbacks come back

"NO STOP"

i step back a little bit as i then move my hands down to my waist

"KAI STOP PLEASE"

i start sobbing but trying to be quite. i chuck on my hoodie and take off my bottoms.
i touch my thighs slowly going over them

"until next time"

i instantly throw on my joggers and put my hair in a messy bun leaving the bathroom.

i make my way downstairs where i see belly and jere sat in the living room

time to act normal, you can do this ev, everything going to be okay, you've got them by your side, im okay.

"morning" i say putting on a fake smile.

they both turn around and look at me with a guilty face. they couldn't really do anything though i don't know why they feel guilty

"how you feeling this morning?" belly asks

"fine why" i lie, i feel uncomfortable in my own body but i'll be okay.

"oh okay, hey eve" she says looking at me

"yeah" i say looking back at her making myself some cereal

"i love you, you know" she says with a smile

"i know bels i love you too" i say

"where's taylor" i look around

"oh i took her to the bus stop an hour ago" she adds

"i didn't even get a goodbye, how rude" i chuckle

they look at me and smile. probably because they think i don't remember. but that's how i want it.

i grab my bowl full of my co co pops and sit on the counter, slowly eating my food i see my mum and laurel come down.

"hey mom" i say looking up smiling at her

"hey honey, how was the party" she says smiling

my face drops instantly so i look down

it's okay. i'm okay. just smile your way though it

i look back up
"no it was good" i smile

"i'm glad" she comes over and kisses my forehead

"hey mom" i said turning around to look at her

"yeah baby" she says looking back

"do you recon we could go get ice cream?" i say

she looks taken back but burst out with a smile
"of course we can, go get ready once your finished and we'll go" she smiles

i finish my food and head upstairs to bump into a tall muscular figure.

"shit i'm sorry" i say looking up