Calm after the Storm

Confessions

Baby, you were the love of my life, woah Maybe you don't know what's lost 'til you find it
Take a walk on Sunday through the afternoon
We can always find somethin' for us to do We don't really like what's on the news, but it's on all the time

Baby, you were the love of my life, woah Maybe you don't know what's lost 'til you find it
It's not what I wanted, to leave you behind
Don't know where you'll land when you fly But, baby, you were the love of my life

(Love of my life - Harry Styles)

[Harry]

After a long phone call with Mitch for Saturday's upcoming show, Harry sits back in frustration. And he's glad that Louis is in therapy right now and doesn't see Harry let out a short scream. Mitch is very disappointed in his public behavior as reporters have portrayed Harry as aggressive outside the courthouse. Harry tried to calm him down and explained how it was really, that he and Louis had been hassled and that he was just trying to protect Louis in this situation. But the selected media clippings show Harry in a completely different light and taken out of the situation - and Mitch fears a shitstorm and falling viewership numbers.

So Harry decides to smooth things over but also speak his own truth at the same time. So he writes down his thoughts in his Note app on his mobile phone and finally posts a screenshot of it on all his social media channels.

I want to put out my point of view about the latest headlines. The videos are completely taken out of context. Actually, when my boyfriend and I got there, there were already a lot of reporters waiting in front of the courthouse. I still can't understand how they could harass a person who has experienced terrible things and was so visibly nervous before the trial. We've had cameras in our faces, we've been pushed, and I'm not at all sorry for protecting my boyfriend. Yes, I pushed people away from him and yes, I was angry about all that. Because Louis is not an animal in the zoo, nor am I. Just because I'm on the screens for you as a public figure and with my own show every Saturday doesn't mean that my partner wants to be exposed. I ask all fans and reporters to accept this, to keep your distance when you see me with my partner. I'm usually open for photos or conversations. But I'm begging you for as much respect as to speak to me beforehand and ask. My partner has PTSD from his violent past, panic attacks can easily be triggered and I just hope you all out there can be considerate. Just like other people who may suffer from it. Always remember that you never know the story behind a person and you should treat others with kindness and respect.

All the Love, H

Harry notices two things while reading the reactions of mostly his fans. He hates putting Louis in this situation in the first place. After everything he's been through, people should be empathetic enough that he doesn't even have to explain it to them. Second - Harry gets so many comments from people who are or have been in a similar situation, or questions from others how they can help, that he decides to devote an entire show to just this topic. Maybe even with Louis' help.

Although then he suddenly freezes. Because he thoughtlessly divulged Louis' condition without asking if he was okay with it. It was in his best interest and yet he feels like the shittiest boyfriend who didn't consider that in the heat of the moment. Louis must be so mad at him. And then the other feelings of guilt come up again. Hasn't he done enough damage to Louis already? Harry feels so damn bad, he just wants to forget. His mind is racing, as is his heart, at how disappointed Louis will be in him. He doesn't want to lose him again. Harry knows he's getting lost in his thoughts but can't help it and soon finds himself sitting at the kitchen table. With a bottle of neat tequila in front of him.