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𝑺𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒊 𝑨𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝑫𝑨𝑳𝑳𝑨𝑺,𝑻𝑿 𝑷𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒅𝒂𝒚
I jumped out of my sleep from hearing my baby cry, a hungry cry it's only been 4 months since my baby girl been in the world and if I said it's been going well I'd be lying...deadass.
I sighed and adjust my bonnet on my head, I walked over to her bassinet that she was in. I slept with her one time and that was it I couldn't even sleep probably because I thought I would roll over her with my big body self.
I picked her up, "what's wrong, riri?" I walked into her room that she hasn't slept in yet but I still go in there with her so she can get a feel for it because once she turns 6months she's sleeping in there.
I didn't spend a thousand dollars on her room for nothing.
I sat in the comfy rocking chair and pop out my tittie so she could feed, I help her adjust and she soon was soothing down as I rubbed her back. I was so glad that I was producing milk, when she was one month I have her formula because I wasn't producing any milk and I was so upset with myself and asking myself why my body didn't do the things it was supposed to do.
I sat there staring at my maternity pictures I took when I was 7 months. I sighed once again thinking about how when I found out I was pregnant I got told she would be in the baby life.
She wasn't telling the truth but she's always just giving money and never actually here to spend time with the baby WE created.
She helps out financially, by making sure kaomi has clothes and bottles and diapers.
But you could ask how many times Milan actually sat down and held our daughter and stayed more then 10 mins. I can count on one hand how many.
When I went into labor, it was just me and my sister...I couldn't make it to the hospital so I did it on my own in the bathroom in my tub alone.
I called everyone Ma'lani answered the first ring but since she moved to NYC she couldn't come obviously so I was on the phone with her, I called my sister and she was 10 hours away from me.
My mother who was suppose to be there for me she disowned me once she found out I was pregnant...by a women. Not because I was just pregnant because if I was pregnant by a man she would've been the biggest support but she wasn't.
