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𝑫𝑨𝑳𝑳𝑨𝑺,𝑻𝑿 𝑺𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒊 𝒂𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝑳𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝑵𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕
"London been asking for you,Milan. She really wants to see how are you and give you money even though you probably don't need it but you could at least come and see your mother since all your life you never gave money or support for her. You really owe her everything."My aunt called and I rolled my eyes as she talk because she knows nothing about the shit I had to go through with that lady.
"The whole family talking really ugly about you too so it's about time to come around."
When I was young very young she made me call her by her name because "she didn't want to hear my little voice calling her 'mommy' I remember one time I slipped up and called her mommy and she locked me in a room for i don't know how long, probably for days not giving me food or a bathroom then when she finally let me out she beat me so bad I still have the slashes on my back but their faded but still visible.
She only asked for a loan and I knew when she asked for a loan it really meant 'give me your money and you're not getting shit back' also she had me I didn't ask to be here so I don't owe her shit but she owes me an apology for taking my childhood away and traumatizing me.
"i don't give a fuck about what they have to say I don't need their money nor do I need you nigga." I hung up and I heard footsteps running away, I knew sahanii was listening but she could at least TRY to be quiet.
The pretty ass nigga couldn't even do that.
I just shook my head thinking about the co-parent we went over. I made a promise to sahanii and I knew she didn't believe me and she has every right too but I have to prove her wrong.
The thing is I don't know how, with all the shit my london put me through I don't know how to parent if I never had a parent. I can't even provide for myself at the moment, shit I just came out of jail and had to sell everything I owned in order to get gas money and food for the 4 months I was homeless.
Some days I went to sleep in the back of my car hungry and cold, but it's not my first time being homeless I was homeless with my brother when my mom kicked us out but he obviously don't never want to tell nobody because it's too embarrassing.
I know I have to change and get my shit together, I have a child now that I have to support.
I washed the few dishes in the sink and cleaned up the kitchen and living room before heading to the couch and pulling out the blanket sahanii gave me. I have been living here for a month and I'm very grateful that I can sleep somewhere other then the back of my car.
