𝑼𝑵𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑳 ✔️

𝑭𝒆𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒔

𝑺𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒊 𝑹𝒐𝒔𝒆

𝑫𝑨𝑳𝑳𝑨𝑺, 𝑻𝑿
𝑨𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕
𝑷𝒓𝒆𝒔𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝑻𝒊𝒎𝒆

"Hey RiRi girl," As I walked into her nursery. She been screaming crying all day today and i truly been overwhelmed and tired. The only time I've talked to Milan is about Kaomi and she made sure she gets Kaomi when it's her time to keep her.

Recently I haven't been to sleep and I've been feeling such a weird tension or been feeling like something is going to happen but I think it's just because of everything that is going on to be honest.

Everyone have been helping so much since I'm basically doing this on my own. Sade has been giving me a little bit of comfort it's the couple of weeks I had a minor pregnancy scare.

Ever since I told her maybe we need to just slow that down. We're simply "fuck buddies" but we talk about life and she just give me that comfort or she's just someone that I can talk about anything about.

Milan has been questioning me about my life and I just give her a one answer response because she don't need to know everything that is in my life only what's with Kaomi and other then that she shouldn't be worried about nothing else.

She let things go when I told her we tried to work things out but things just aren't meant to be.

I've slowly been distancing myself away from people. My mother side what's to now come around since they found out I had a baby but I just brushed all the fake off.

They all asked about Kaomi other parent and how she should be more involved with Kaomi life and how it's not good that I'm a single parent.

I think different as long as both me and Milan is raising her right, feeding her, and loving her she's okay and we're going to be okay. I grew up with my mom in the house and even though she's a bitch now but it taught me that being a single mother teaches my child something and that's is independence.

I don't need Milan to be here 24/7 helping me out with everything because I can do it just as good or even better by myself. Kaomi is going to grow up being the best child and going to be great when she's an adult only because I'm going to teach her and lead her and guide her. I'm going to stop the cycle of things.

I finally had gotten her back to sleep and slowly put her in my bed and put pillows all around her so she doesn't roll over.

Everyday I think about Milan but I would be straight up lying about if I didn't miss her. I walked back into the kitchen as I said Dylan and Ma'lani sitting there eating the snacks that we
was all eating together.

"Are you okay, nini?" Dylan asked. I sat down and shoved my head onto Ma'lani shoulder I felt both of their hands rub on my back.

"Is this about, Milan?" I heard the attitude in Ma'lani voice I knew she didn't like her and I couldn't blame her.

"Not just her but just life...life is most definitely lifeing and I'm not here for it" They both agreed.

"You know what I heard from a H.E.R song called 'Against me' and some verses just really sound like what I'm going through"

"I found myself searching for a way to prevent, the detriment
And giving the impression that if you express to him what a woman needs
His comprehension is definite
But there's a difference between understanding and honoring your word And I'm articulate, he's a good listener but I'm hesitant"

"Only calls when he's desperate
I guess, it's too much pressure to be respectful and honest
It's too stressful to be keeping promises and I'm impatient
I'm too high maintenance, way too many expectations"

"Can I get an Amen?" Dylan said. I started laughing.

"But Sahanii you know what's best for you and your baby, don't let anyone tell you what you need to do in able to raise a baby. We love and are here for you and you need to get more dick from that Sade girl so she can fuck that Milan shit out your head"

I rolled my eyes as Ma'lani spoke, "I have a dick appointment in a couple of hours so can you take RiRi and I'll get her in the morning so I can drop her off and her mom house?"

"Okay girlll, you better tell us how it went too because we'll be waiting" Dylan said. I love my sister so much she always been there since day one I get along with her so well.

"Tomorrow I leave to go back to New York, I think I've seen enough down here in TX" Ma'lani said. Dylan and I both agreed as well, we sat in comfortable silence just enjoying each other.

I hear a phone go off. Dylan answered her phone and her facial expression went to horror and every that she was holding except her phone she dropped.

"Guys Jax and Kayla in in the hospital, WE NEED TO GO" Ma'lani grabbed her purse and she flew out the door I went to put Kaomi in her car seat. Soon I saw Dylan face and she was sobbing and hyperventilating. I pulled her into a hug and started rubbing her back.

"It's going to be okay, I know it's scary but you'll be okay and we're going to pray that them both is okay, understand Dyl?"

"Y-yes" she said as she nodded too I grabbed kaomi baby bag and her and we both rushed out.

Ma'lani car was no where to be found so we knew we had to go the hospital quickly.

Please lord let them be okay...

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I am so sorry I been abandoning this book life have been lifeing but I hope you all are doing well

Sorry for the shitty chap it's better then nothing