Bitter | Bill Kaulitz

10

"YOU GUYS KISSED AGAIN?" Tom yelled to us as we all sat in the twins shared hotel room.

"What was the point in bringing this up..." I smack my forehead.

"Because I thought it was just a bet but I guess not... when's my turn." Tom fake blows a kiss at me and I pretend to puke.

"Never!" I smile and shove him, going back to my hotel room.

Tom always joked like that and I knew he wasn't being serious, only because Bill and I had that tension with each other that Tom wouldn't interfere with.

I'm sitting in my hotel room.

I've been with the band for only a couple days, I did miss my mom and I'd call her before I went to bed to make sure she was okay and I'd text Clark too.

It was late, I was so tired. I don't even think they actually needed an assistant. Everything about this whole shebang felt off.

My head lays on the pillow and my eyes flutter shut.

It seems like most times that I sleep I have dreams about an older figure who talks to me like he's my parent, but he always has a blurred face so I don't know what he looks like, but tonight my head was cleared. No thoughts when I fell asleep, blank minded and peaceful.

I woke up to birds chirping, no alarm and not even one of the boys waking me up. Just sun hitting my face making me struggle to open my eyes.

I sit up and wipe my eyes, getting all my eye boogers out and processing that I'm awake.

I pick up my phone and check the time.

11:38am

Message From Bill.

Dang I slept in, I click the notification where it says Bill texted me.

Bill

Bill: good afternoon rosey! we went out to grab lunch for all of us, be back soon;)

Rose: ty for letting me know:)

I set down my phone and smile. I love the way he texted and he was so reassuring.

He'd be such a good boyfriend. But he's not mine what am I even thinking.

Them being gone gave me time to get ready.

I sit up, opening my nightstand drawer and taking the hairbrush out.

I brush the knots out of my hair, then finger brushing it. My hair had so much volume in it and bounced when I walked, I loved my hair.

I walk over to the mirror and examine myself, I've always wanted to try makeup but I didn't know how to use it.

I quietly go over to Bills shared hotel room and open the door.

I'm still in my pajamas and I'm in their bathroom, snooping through the makeup Bill has.

He's got eyeliners, dark eyeshadows and different mascaras. I was shocked by the amount I was exposed to and I was even more excited to use it...but I don't know how.

I do what I've seen on commercials and shows, I put the black eyeshadow on my eyelid... god it looks like someone gave me a black eye.

I turn their water on and start trying to wipe it off. It starts to smear around my eye making it look even worse. This was extremely embarrassing.

"Do you even know how to use that?" Bills voice echos through my ears.

I stand there frozen out of pure embarrassment, when the hell did he come in? He just saw this all unleash too.