Bitter | Bill Kaulitz

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"Rose" Bill spoke.

"Hm?" I answered.

"Hypothetically speaking, if you came to LA with us, would you also come home with me?" He looks me in my eyes.

"What do you mean?"

"Like... come home to germany with us." He put a smile on his face that soon disappeared with my answer.

"I don't know Bill."

He was trying to hide the fact that it upset him, I could tell. I still had a life though, I needed to finish college and my mom still didn't have the money to support herself on her own.

Once I got my mom the stable money and house she deserved, then maybe I would ever consider leaving her. But I couldn't now.

Bill broke the silence after a while, "You are an adult Rose... you can make your own decisions if it's your mom stopping you."

"It's not that Bill, sorry not to get shitty but have you ever even grown up poor? Like at all?" I look at him in disbelief.

He furrows his eyebrows at me and gets up.

"Actually if you care to know I did grow up poor! I made money when I put this band together and finally made it out there." He slammed the door and left.

Leaving me by myself.

He was so mad for what.

I'm not going with them, so I'm going home.

I did the same thing I did before and packed all of my stuff into a bag.

Except this time I actually said bye.

I walked over to Georg's room first and knocked, he answered it fast.

"What's up Ray?" He smiled.

"I'm leaving." I try to put a pity smile on my face.

He doesn't question but he looks a little sad, he pulls me into a hug.

"We'll miss ya, keep in touch." He lets go and I nod.

I head to Gustav's room which was next to Georg's, before I even knock he opens it and hugs me.

"You're leaning?" He sounds more upset.

"I'm sorry, I can't leave my mom in this condition." I feel as if I wanna cry. Gustav was so sweet.

"I'll make sure to text you!" Gustav yells to me as a I walk to the shared bedroom.

I don't knock, I open it and they're both laying down, they look at me at the same time.

"Do you need something?" Tom asks.

"I'm leaving I just wanted to say bye." I feel awkward.

Bill looks away, acting uninterested and Tom walks over to me, also pulling me into a hug.

"I understand, make sure to give me some calls and stuff brainy." He laughs and lays back down.

Bill doesn't even say bye or nothing, he just stares at me with the same cold bitter eyes I saw when I first met him.

I wanted to cry, so I did.

When I left I let tears stream down my face, everything was going fast.

Got out of the elevator to flashes and people asking me if I'm okay.

I saw my taxi guy, the same guy who I always seem to get when I take a taxi.

I hop in the back no warning and he acts shocked and then sees it me.