Bitter | Bill Kaulitz

4

It's midnight and I'm laying in bed while my brother is at work. Like I had mentioned before, my brother works at a factory and does night shifts.

I just couldn't sleep, no I wasn't thinking about Bill, how was I supposed to tell my mom I lost my job because they can't keep ice cream cold?

I was gonna take a walk. I only do this when Clark is gone because he'd freak out if he knew that I went on walks at night. My mom knew she just didn't mind because she trusts me.

I keep my pajamas on but I put on a black zip up hoodie. I put my phone into my pocket of the hoodie.

I opened the front door quietly to make sure I don't wake up my mom, I shut the door behind me quietly and grab the key from under our doormat, locking my mom inside. Just to be safe.

I put the key back under the doormat and I start walking, downtown Boston was absolutely beautiful when there wasn't traffic or super busy with cars, just amazingly huge buildings that light up the whole downtown.

Sometimes walking on the sidewalk made you feel like you were in a movie, I knew I should've been doing schoolwork or sleeping but it was never easy, I wanted to have a life I just felt like I was in the boring part of my life. The only fun thing I've had so far was meeting those guys, even though they were lowkey dicks, I still enjoyed meeting them.

I walked past a bunch of shops, looking at all the pretty items that I knew I couldn't ever have, passing strip clubs and bars watching people stumble out of them like they were about to be unconscious.

I only had about 20 dollars in my pocket. One ten dollar bill, one five dollar bill, and then five ones.

I gave this homeless guy a buck when I passed him and he "blessed" me. It was cute.

I walked past countless people with a hood on, they probably found me suspicious.

After walking I was in the heavily populated part of Boston. I had to have been walking for at least an hour to get here. There are clubs and casinos everywhere, food places being open 24 hours and just a ton of people.

One of the clubs I walked by in particular, someone stumbled out of the doors in front of me and just about face planted.

"Oh shit! Are you okay?" I knelt down to the ground, turning them on their back, then I saw their face and their drunken eyes met mine.

It was Bill.

"Mannnnn. We gotta stop bumping into each other like this Rosey!" He laughs with his eyes closed, slurring his words completely.

"Right..." I lifted his head up and slowly set it down on the concrete just so he wouldn't hurt himself, as I'm getting ready to help him up and girl comes running out.

"Oh there you are Bill!" She comes over to him as I back away from Bill. The girl lifts him up and she's short and skinny with blonde hair. "We weren't done dancing!" She try's to pull him back inside.

"Who are you?" Bill looks at her confused clearly not remembering, I don't want Bill to go with her if he doesn't know her.

"Babe come on we were just dancing together and making out?" She starts freaking out and looking around her.

Bill is still confused and I'm just standing there looking dumb. Then she looks at me, "Why are you here what do you want?"

I don't say anything but I pull Bill back to my side to keep him steady and on his feet, she looks at me shocked and storms inside. I can see smeared lipstick on Bills face and neck, I don't know why it was upsetting to see but it was.

As I'm helping him stand up straight he's staring down at me, low drunken eyes. They're seductive.

"Don't look at me like that..." I quietly say, not wanting him to find me weird.