These Wrecked Hearts- (Published Under IMMAC)

Epilogue

RYKER's POV

I could feel the adrenaline pouring through my veins as my memories began to resurface. I recalled being abducted, having my eyes covered, and being thrown into the back of a vehicle. I didn't know where I was headed or what would happen to me. I was only aware of my fear and isolation.

I could hear voices and footsteps moving closer and closer as the vehicle traveled for what seemed like hours. I prepared for the worst and pondered if this was the time when my life would end.

"Sino kayo?" sigaw ko sa kanila.

"Ang ingay mo! Wala ka ng pakialam kung sino man kami!" sigaw nang isa sa kanila.

After that they cover my mouth with duct tape. For them to get information, I underwent beatings and torture. I was compelled to divulge my family's location and our financial situation. The gang members were using all means at their disposal to try and get information out of me and were pursuing me aggressively.

"Ang swerte naman pala natin, galing sa mayaman na pamilya ang batang 'to." rinig kung sabi ng isa sa kumuha sa akin.

"Jack pot nga tayo, boss! Anak pala 'to ng isang kilalang businessman at bilyonaryo," segunda naman ng isa.

"Tawagan na natin ang mga magulang nito at humingi tayo ng 2o milyon. Siguradong ibibigay agad nila 'yon kapalit ng anak nila,"

I resisted giving up in spite of the suffering and terror. I almost lost my consciousness. I am aware that I must maintain my resolve and not allow them to break me. Even if my body was damaged, I held on to my sense of self.

I was covered with blood, too much blood. I get lashes from them. I really thought I'm going to die and honestly I was ready at that moment.

Pero totoo nga talaga ang sabi ng iba na kapag hindi mo pa oras ay hindi ka kukunin ni Lord. That's why I survived. I don't know how. I just remembered my parents having a transaction with those shits.

"Where am I?" I asked.

It was my mom who welcomed me. "Anak! You're awake!"

"Mom? Dad?"

"Yes, Ryker. Ligtas ka na anak, nasa hospital ka ngayon," sagot naman ni Daddy.

I couldn't help but feel ashamed and guilty as I lay in my hospital bed. I'd been abducted and it had taken its toll. 

After what happened I was never the same.

I grew so aggressive that I'd have these periods when I'd lose control and behave like a lunatic. My parents were afraid of me, so they had no choice but to send me here.

Walang araw na hindi ako nasasangkot sa gulo sa mga bars. My parents? They always bail me out. There was a time that I hurt one of my business partners, my best friend just covered me. Halos sa lahat ng katarantaduhan ko ay magulang ko at si River ang umaayos.

"River, bakit ka ba nagkakaganyan? Pinagsasabihan lang naman kita eh!"

No one can handle me anymore. Lahat ng nahawakan ko ay binabasag ko. Wala akong naririnig. I am so mad! Naiirita ako sa mga boses na naririnig ko sa ulo ko kasama na ang boses ni Mom, Dad, and River.

"Ryker, please calm down!"

My parents were left with no other choice but to bring me somewhere else. And that place was hell to me.

St. Angelus Psychiatric and Custodial Homecare...

Hindi ako makapaniwala na dinala nila ako sa mental hospital. Does that mean I am crazy? Is that what my parents think of me? Sila pa talaga ang nagdala sa akin sa lugar na ito. I hate them..I hate what they fucking did!

"I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE!" I screamed.

But, I was pulled by their staff who were wearing white. I was screaming and I was fighting back. Pero wala iyong nagawa. I stayed in the mental hospital for years. My doctor, his name is Dr. Lucio but I never listened to him.

While I was in the hospital, I was hurt. I feel like my heart is being wrecked again and again. How the fuck I ended up here? Why?

I was fighting my inner demons for a long time but I was never successful.

"I will leave this place."

I took the opportunity to escape when one time, the nurse who should be my attendee got busy with another patient. It was afternoon, the guards were on break. Luckily, hindi nila nabantayan ang gate. Mabilis akong tumakbo at nagtago palabas. Umuwi ako sa bahay namin at mabuti na lang ay wala ang mga magulang ko ng araw na 'yon. Kumuha lang ako ng gamit kasama ang phone ko sa aking kwarto at saka umalis.

Then, I tried to find the nearest bank to withdraw some money and after that I got into my car. I was so mad at how hassle it is just to escape that hell.

"FUCKING SHIT!"

'Thank god and I'm out of that hell!' I don't want to go back there. Every second, every minute there felt suffocating. I slammed my car door shut. Then I quickly started the car engine. Then I quickly left.

'I don't want that hell hole again! I am going to my own paradise!'