The Foreign Fanboy || Hwang Hyunjin

Chapter 23

[Nikki's POV]

"This is fucked up, Nik," Chan says with an over worried face. I lower my head, thinking this is all my fault.

When I received the message, I went straight to Ian and showed him the message. He suggested to tell the boys about it once they are here, but I didn't want to. I don't want to make them responsible for this as well, because it's not their fault.

I don't know what she wants from me, but I know it's not going to be something reasonable. I know her, she was my best friend until freshman year, since Ian and I started to become famous.

She thought I was leaving her and leaked a lot of information about me and Ian, which people are still talking about today. It is damaging our career for a part, but we have been working really hard to prove everyone wrong, which is going pretty well.

Ian convinced me in telling the boys about it and here we are, my phone going around the group and my guilt building up every second.

"What does she want from you? And from me for that matters." Hyunjin looks up from the phone, looking at me worriedly.

"I guess she wants to plan some sort of revenge for god knows what." Since I couldn't get myself over it, Ian explains everything about Della and what she has done.

The boys listen carefully, growing more worried by the second, making my guilt go up even more as well.

When Ian is done explaining, I feel two arms wrap around my waist. I look up and see Jisung hugging me, who was sitting next to me.

I smile a little, knowing that he, and the others hopefully as well, care about me. "I'm so sorry, Nikki," Jisung murmurs in my neck, his head buried in it.

Once he lets go, Felix walks up to me and gives me yet another hug. And before I know it, everyone hugged me and we're now laying on the couch and floor.

I have my head resting on Jisung's shoulder. Felix has his head on my lap and Hyunjin sits in front of me with his front facing me. Jisung is sharing his thoughts about some psychological questions and I'm questioning my existence a little from it.

Changbin has Ian locked in a bear hug, which Ian accepts. Ian has his head on Jeongin's shoulder and Jeongin is showing him something on his phone with Changbin trying to get a peek of it as well.

Chan is clinging onto Minho once again and the bunny boy is trying to escape from his grip. Seungmin is laughing at the latter evilly, getting a death stare from him in return.

A while ago, Millie and Paddy texted me back about Della and assured me it's going to be okay, because they will be there for me.

Looking around the room, watching the nine boys talking to one another, I know that this is my safe place. Add Millie and Paddy and I have all the people I care about in one place. I wouldn't want to leave ever again.

I know that I know these guys for only some days, but I feel really at ease with them. I really hope they feel the same towards me and my twin. I hope no one like Della can ever take this away from me.

But of course, I will be wrong.

I know she's coming for me, and it will be soon, but I want to cherish this moment while it lasts.

I check my phone to scroll through some dms I received. Jisung is watching with me. Felix and Hyunjin are talking to Jeongin about the upcoming concert that is in two days. Ian is trying to get some tickets from them, but is still in a deep conversation about that.

I answer some dms and scroll further. Of course, I always receive hate comments and death threats, but somehow it has increased. I see a lot of comments from some Stray Kids fans about that I should stay away from them or that I only use them.

I know it's not true, but I still have Della stuck at the back of my head saying around the same thing.

Do people really hate me?

Should I really stay away from them and mind my own business?

Jisung notices my discomfort and nudges me, causing me to look up at him. "Don't get this too much into your head, okay? It's not true, they're just jealous."

I know he's right, but why does is still hurt me? There are also fans of mine who are as protective over me as STAYs over Stray Kids and saying they are only friends with us because of the fame.

I really hope that's not true. They can still be acting, you know?

I nod my head to Jisung, looking back at the hate comments on my phone. Jisung snatches my phone out of my hands and looks through the comments himself.

"Look, this one says we look very happy and they hope we will collaborate," Jisung reads out. Changbin heard Jisung's comment and looks up to us.

"That's a good idea! Not because you are more famous than we are, I think it will be fun making music together," Changbin assures me.

I do think it would become a banger, though.

[Jisung's POV]

While Changbin and Nikki are talking about producing, I look further through Nikki's dms.

Wow, she really gets a lot of hate.

Almost half of her dms are full with hate. I don't know how she can handle all of this, I can barely let it slide.

I see a lot of STAYs are threatening her as well, which makes me even sadder, seeing our fans go out on her and Ian probably as well.

I try to shake off these thoughts, laying the girl's phone away. I see Nikki is still a little tense, so I try to come up with something to make her feel more at ease again.

Fortunately, my mind is as weird as a potato and comes up with some weird question I do want the answer of.

"What was the intention of the person who found out there can come milk out of cows their udders?"

Nikki, Changbin, Felix, and Hyunjin turn their heads towards me with a blank stare.

"You do have a point there, that question pops up in my head sometimes as well and I still have no answer to it. I told myself I don't want to know," Nikki admits, looking up at the ceiling. "I mean, the answer is probably something way too dirty."

The longer I think about it, the more innocence that was still left in me floats out of me.

Why do I have to be an image thinker?

I shake off the thought and look at Nikki, chuckling at me. Hyunjin starts talking to her about my question and it makes Nikki laugh.

I smile at myself. Felix notices it and sits next to me, arms around my shoulder. "You like her or something? You are smiling at her," the boy one day younger than me asks me.

I look at him with a weirded out look. "I don't like her, I'm just happy she's happy now, since so many things are happening to her at the moment. I was looking through her dms and she receives so much hate."

Felix sighs and rests his head on my shoulder. "That's a part of the deal of being famous, Ji." I look at Nikki and Hyunjin joking around in front of me. "I know, but half of it are hate comments and death threaths. I don't get that many."

"The only thing we can do for her and Ian now is being there for them and helping them out whenever they need it."

He has a point. How much I want to help, I can't. We can't. But it's not normal for people to hate on someone this much when they haven't done anything to them.

"Ya, kids, do we want to play some games?" Ian asks, pointing the remote to the big television before us.

"I'm in!"

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Am I talking a little too much about the relationship status between the twins and Stray Kids? I feel like I do but then again I can't really do much about it 🤷‍♀️

I know this is all going fast, being this is all happening in some days, but Stray Kids is in LA for two weeks so it has to happen fast.

I hope you do like it despite this <33